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Saturday, 27-Sep-2003 11:17 PM Packing. Procrastinating. Poop. I'm leaving tomorrow and already I'm dreading the trip. This always happens and I can't understand why. Maybe it's a 'think negative so everything will turn out better than expected' mentality but whatever it is, I wish I was more positive. Or that I just didn't dwell on what could possibly happen when we cram 8 people into a two bedroom place. I just hope everyone gets along. I feel like I've wasted the whole day. It IS my first day of break but I wanted to get so much done, study-wise. Something you know? So I won't feel so guilty and behind during my 5 days away. The other thing is, it always looks like I've packed way too much but I always end up having the smallest bag. This time (though I think this every time) I think I'll have more than everyone else. My sister's boyfriend is dogsitting his boss' dog and his old housemate is visiting and he also has a dog. Turns out the two dogs don't get along at all so one of them is getting aquainted with our laundry room tonight :)
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Think she got tired of me following her around :) Saturday, 27-Sep-2003 1:37 AM I just voluntarily gave my mom a half hour massage. How unlike me! That's usually reserved for paying customers and people like Denzel Washington. Thursday, 25-Sep-2003 11:59 PM The itch. Last day of school tomorrow and then I'm off for the uni games! Not as excited about it but I'm really, really hoping it turns out great. My mom suggested I bring those plastic dolphins/turtles up so I can massage without using my fingers. Hahaha..I might just do that :) I don't know how we'll all get along since we're from different groups of friends. I bet I'm the only one worrying about all these little things. Everyone else seems to just go with the flow. I'm wonderinf if they'll be nice enough to let the girls have the beds but I have a feeling it'll be first come first serve. This super hot, super dry weather is killing my poor skin. I'm trying so hard not to scratch but I'm really feelin the heat. I'm also still tossing up whether to give my hair the chop or not. This has been a 2 month long decision now :( I wish I were more decisive sometimes..I just want the best of both worlds ...I see girls with short hair and its just so cute but the whole 'hair in eyes' factor when the wind blows drives me insane. Although, right now I'm battling the 'hair wraps around face and head twice over when wind blows' ordeal. Wednesday, 24-Sep-2003 6:24 PM Hot fun in the Summer sun! (I know, it's Spring :P) Mmm...don't you love it when you're so exhausted, you fall asleep and when you awake, you found you haven't finished chewing on those brazil nuts from an hour ago? :D So I'm now paying the consequences of a fun day. Post-soccer tension headache from the super hot sun. And this strange throbbing feeling in my second toe. Ahh but it was all worth it. I haven't touched a soccer ball in so long...I think 6 years and I miss it so so much. I played better than I remembered I could...even juggling the ball seemed easier than before. I wonder now if this will stop those recurrent dreams I've had about being on a team again and that desire to kick the other team's ass. Man, those were the days eh?:D Had a test this morning which was really easy .It's really just to get us to read the clinic manual before we become an intern at the student clinics. Only an hour and it was multiple choice and some of the answer were just as ridiculous as the questions ie what would you do in the event that the ancillary equipment you are using breaks down? One of the possible answers was 'run away and hide'. If only all exams were that fun. Actually, it would have been more fun except that I stayed up to watch Amazing Race last night (woO!) and was up all night with adrenalin still pumping through me! I can't wait for tonight's final episode! I'm not too fond of any of the three remaining teams but I especially don't want the co-ed team to win. Rude, rude people... Lately I've noticed that they just remove whatever shows they like from tv without any warning and it's either a permanent thing or they continue with it the following week or they put the show on at a different time without giving notice. Please don't do this! I plan my nights around my favorite shows and this just ruins everything :P Sunday, 21-Sep-2003 3:22 PM Purr. So he's got the cat. Her cat. God knows how long he'll be minding it for because she said she might not be back in one month.. it maybe longer. She called on her way to the airport yesterday, to 'check on the cat'. I'm sure she really needed a half hour conversation to do that. It's not like she already spent that whole night the other week teaching him how to care for it, plus they all went out the night before since it was her last night and prior to that she had driven over to deliver the cat. I was thinking...Salami, are you that dumb!? Or do you think I'M that dumb that I don't realise she's using the cat as an excuse to talk to you for half an hour (which I stupidly waited around for)?? Ahh well..what's done is done and I'm actually jealous he has an animal roaming around his place. When we were on the phone, I asked where the cat was and he was shocked to find that she was sitting on top of his fishtank! I have a feeling this cat is going to own his place soon and she'll be the one wearing the pants and bossing him around. Apparently she has this necessity to be watching you while you take your shower. I can't imagine that :) I'd be so paranoid! That is one hellova kinky cat. Saturday, 20-Sep-2003 4:50 PM You should stick to plastic roses and concrete grounds. Once again my moodiness has inspired me to write.....actually, it's just because I have no one else to talk to about this particular incident that just happened. Not that it's life-threatening but it's damn well pissing me off. I tell you, the little things get under my skin. My sister - dislikes plants, dislikes gardening. Why the hell she decided to do the 'weeding' just now, is beyond me. Why she's fixing the sidegate is beyond me too. All I can think is that she's trying to make it look like she's some kind of all-round chic in front of her boyfriend. I was trying to study but one neighbour is whistling the same freaking tune over and over. It's not even a musical tune, more like some kind of bird-call but it's irritating as hell. The other neighbour is sanding wood to some musical rhythm which is also adding to my irritation because I have no idea what the hell tune he's sanding to. All this for the past three hours or so. Fuckin hell. So I had had enough. I went downstairs to see what everyone else was doing and that's when my sister said she did the weeding in the front garden with her bf and my mom jokingly said 'yeah! She pulled out your irises!' but I could see they were still there so I wasn't worried. I go take my laundry in from the backyard and instead of going upstairs, I decide to go outside and have a better look at her weeding job. That's when I noticed they were gone. 'You pulled out my flowers!!!!!' 'What flowers? There were no flowers.' 'They were right here! They were white! I showed you them last week! I made you and mom come out to have a look at them!' This is where anger started to sink in because she kept insisting there were no flowers and she had no recollection of ever seeing flowers. She also kept repeating that she pulled out what she thought were weeds, like wintergrass. Like wintergrass. Like wintergrass. OK, stop freakin repeating that! It looks NOTHING like wintergrass. I just stood there, silent and dumbfounded. 'Sorry but I only pulled out what I thought were weeds, like wintergrass.' AAAAAAARGH. No one understands this like a little girl who's put her heart and soul into planting a giant beanstalk from one kidney bean. I should find this girl. She'll console me. I planted these flowers from seeds :( Tiny, tiny seeds that took a mothereffing long time to grow and now that they've finally flowered...now, when it is the only time where it could not possibly BE mistaken for weeds, she pulls the whole fucking lot out. And I wanted to go straight to my room and call my dad (overseas) to whine but I realised a few years ago, he pulled out my aloe vera plant and didn't give a shit. Told me - "All I did was pull out what I thought were weeds. Like wintergrass." Wednesday, September 17, 2003 8:59 PM In three hours and one minute it will be my birthday! Not that I'm overly enthusiastic about it, but I guess slightly moreso than previous years. It's still really just another day and tomorrow I have an early start and I'll be in clinic for my buddy shift :( The last thing I want to do on my birthdays is give other people massages and stuff but what the hey. The tests/exams I've had the past few days have been okay. Wish I did better on one of them...I tend to joke around a little too much and that could cost me some marks :( We'll see. Hopefully not! Salami called me yesterday. It was a nice surprise! I had just woken up too and was thinking about him. The reception wasn't too clear so I said I'd call him back using my housephone. When I opened my room door to go outside and get the cordless phone, there was a huge box sitting at the foot of my door! Big enough to trip over :D Hehehe.. every year so far, he's sent a big box for my birthday and inside has been countless presents all individually wrapped. It's kind of adorable because I can't imagine a guy sitting down to wrap anything nicely. I wasn't allowed to open but he gave in last night because he had also burned me a cd with all these pictures he took from his hiking trip and really wanted me to see that. I got to open one present, which I thought was a book and I was thinking..hmm..okay...not that I have any time to read story books but I do love new books :D I couldn't help but laugh at the wrapping. One end was folded to a point, while the other was straight-edged. 'That's how you do it!' he says. Very cute. Anyhow, it was the Felicity series boxed set of DVDs. I love it! I love that show..to the point where the night before, not that anyone knew, especially him, I was surfing ebay trying to find the soundtrack and also looking at the boxed set of DVDs. I almost bid for a the soundtrack but ended up putting everything on my 'Watch This Item' page. I'm happy :) I also accidentally spilt hot water all over my keyboard and almost had a heart attack because nothing worked and when it did, every key I pressed would represent about 5 different symbols. Then all the other keys were opening and closing random windows. It was a mess! I had to pull the whole thing apart and clean it :(
Today I went out with my mom for some shopping. I needed to get some more business-type shirts and stuff. We weren't there long because I was feeling really dizzy and faint. I even fell asleep in the car (which is unusual, especially when my mom drives:P ) and when I got home, I could barely get to my room. Ended up sleeping for over two hours and when I got out of bed, I stumbled over to my desk. My head felt like it was the size of a hot-air balloon and filled with lead. So an unproductive day....I rushed over to two different post offices and both were closed...bah. Then we went out for dinner because we were all too tired to cook. Now it's already 9 something and I have to shower and do work :( Although...I heard my mom whispering to my sister before....do I detect some gift-giving shortly?? :D ) Sunday, 14-Sep-2003 11:28 PM J-J-J-Jittery I am so freakin nervous about this random assessment tomorrow even though I know I'm going to be called on, since this is the last week we're doing it and everyone who hasn't been assessed in the previous weeks are all being assesssed. It just shits me how much more I have to learn compared to the others because each week we learn new things and it's added on as part of the assessment for the following week and those who have already been assessed don't have to bother learning it even. I hate the anticipation. Plus I don't like that I'm going to have to do it in front of all the other students :( Sigh, wish me luck! I just need to calm down. I think it has something to do with the really strong coffee I had today too. I've been jittery and nervous all day. My mind's ticking like a bomb about to explode...I don't know how I'm going to get a good night's rest tonight. Any remedies? Burning lavender oil doesn't seem to help, nor does a massage or meditation...and I'm too lazy to make any kind of hot drink. I just noticed how many times I used the word 'assessed' back there. Eeesh..I need sleep damnit. Lets hope I'm not going to be a grumpy ass tomorrow morning. Hey? What happened to Dawson's Creek? Two episodes and they're axed, or what? Sunday, 14-Sep-2003 0:38 AM Dinner Talk and Spaghetti Gossip. We went out for dinner tonight, mom, my sis, her bf and I. Had spaghetti bolognaise and pizza :D We stirred up a conversation about favorite comedies, favorite romantic movies, actors, actresses and directors. We went around the table and had to name 3 favorite female actresses and 3 male actors. It took me a long while to think of mine and I'm still not sure about the ones I named. .I'm sure I'm leaving someone out that I adore...but tonight, these three actors got my vote: John Cusack, Morgan Freeman and Johnny Depp. Now I know I'm going to get cringes from a lot of people, but I really do like Johnny Depp and the characters he plays intrigue me. John Cusack is just....well, I fall for him every single time. :D Except in 'Being John Malkovich' where his lack of personal hygiene just grossed me out, despite how cute I think he is :P There are others I really like but didn't name for some reason...Denzel Washington, Tom Hanks...I even like that Hayley Joel Osment kid.. I think he's great! As for the females..hmmmm...I've always adored Bridget Fonda...but maybe it's because of that one movie I saw (The Assassin) but anyhow, I gave her one of my three votes tonight, along with Natalie Portman and I can't remember who else I named. I think Michelle Pfieffer. I quite like Annette Bening too =) Ahh there's just too many to name. Okay, so if you're bored...give me your top three and three :D Go on! Friday, 12-Sep-2003 6:21 PM Boot Toot and Scootin! Had an in-class assessment today. I wasn't too phased about it because I thought it was just an informal thing done in class but they actually got everyone out of the room except for the students being tested (6 at a time, with 3 different examiners). I got pretty nervous before it because I didn't realise I was doing a few set-ups wrong until my friend told me. Plus I was just having a real off day with it. Usually we take a 'card' at random and do what it says but today they told us the card number and then read out the set-ups to us. I hate that. I need to SEE the words or I tend to now know what I have to do ie Lumbar Sideposture Pisiform PSIS Contact (Flexion). Anyhow, when it came to my turn, I got asked to do motion palpation of this segment that wasn't actually on the cards. It shocked me so I repeated it back to the supervisor ...'motion palp of C7-T1??' and he goes 'yep'. So what could I say??! I wanted to whine and say it wasn't on the cards but technically I should know how to do it. So all I could do was say 'sure!' and fumble my way through it. It's just annoying with all the different hand and finger contacts. All I could think was shit, I'm screwed. I hope he doesn't notice I'm using my thumb and not my index...damn I wish my fingers would stop shaking. My adjustment set-ups were pretty good, I think. Ahh lets hope. I asked when we were getting the results back and he mentioned that I didn't have anything to be worried about. I'm taking his word for it. He better not disappoint me now! On to other things...look what I got! Haha..I thought it was hilarious that they came out with this book under the Chicken Soup series so I just had to grab me one. Am I a dork or what.
I've also got the greatest Friday night planned out. Tapes, tapes and more tapes. Two episodes of Amazing Race, Temptation Island and The Bachelor. Haha..those last two I'm embarassed about....so we'll just keep that between you and I, okay? Oh..I'm torturing myself here once again by reminding me how foolish I can be sometimes and how I guess I bring it on myself...So the day after rushing home to talk to Salami (before he sleeps) and calling him up only to hear the engaged tone and finding out after that he was talking to her, what do I do? I rush home again and wait around for him and then decide to call him at his apt. No answer. I thought maybe he was sleeping so I didn't want to call again but instead left a message on his cellphone. Where was he when I was calling? Bingo. Her place. He got home at 11pm and I'm thinking, isn't that a tad LATE to be coming home? I mean, how many hours does it take to learn how to take care of a cat damnit?! Cats take care of themselves!! I wanted to be like, hello??? Are you that oblivious or what?? He went there after dinner and after learning how to care for the cat, they watched part of a movie. Leaving Las Vegas. I haven't seen that so I was asking what kind of movie it was...I guess I was trying to figure out if it was some kind of tactic to put on some scary/sappy/touching movie where she could get all emotional and he'd have to console her. He better not fall for it hook, line and sinker or I'm gonna have to punch her lights out. And his. Okay okay..I'm not that violent...and he is a really faithful person..moreso than me, I think...but I can't help feeling insecure. Like 30,000 miles insecure. Wednesday, 10-Sep-2003 11:14 PM Crap. Literally. I can't stand it when people purposely ruin a movieplot or series for you. I've spent the last two days constantly plugging my ears (with such pressure it feels like my head is going to implode!) just so I can avoid hearing anything about Amazing Race from my friends. I haven't had a chance to watch the last episode yet. I've got three other shows lined up on tape just waiting for me but today's procrastination was scheduled to do other things. My cousins and aunt came over last night so I didn't get to bed til pretty late. The little one is so tall now...she's my height and only 14! Bah, that sucks. Don't you hate it when you have to watch as everyone else surpasses you in height. Sucks to be short. Not that I want to be tall...just one inch more is fine with me. She's such a cutie too. I tried to get a picture of her but she kept hiding behind her sister. Oh, I'm taking back the 'Ate good Malaysian food' line from my previous entry because I spent all of Monday with some crazy food poisoning ! :P My sister got sick too..so we were trying to figure out what things we both ate that no one else did. Unfortunately this meant having to throw out all the good stuff :( All the desserts! Damnit:P They tasted sooooo goooood! How could they be contaminated! :( I can't boast about having a typical Malaysian iron stomach now =( So. What would you do if some girl really liked your boy and he's already told her he's taken but now you find she's leaving the country and has to give up her beloved cat and he's offered to take care of it for her until she comes back?! I'm making it seem like I'm bothered but I'm not, really. It's just that I mentioned to Salami that I don't know this girl and I'm not there and so I'm thinking...everytime he plays with that cat, he'll be thinking of her. 'Oh, I didn't think of that' he says. Well I'll bet SHE did, I tell him. So what does he say? 'I think you're thinking too much into this.' Whatever boy:P I'm female, it can't be helped. I know what she's trying to do! Plus I'd do the same damn thing if I liked a guy and he was taken and his girl wasn't around. Gives me an excuse to call or visit and turn on the charm so he falls for me instead. Bah! He's a dork! No one like him! Only me! By the way, thanks to all those people who've signed my guestbook and left such nice entries. It really does make my day =) Well, up until the point where someone shoots me down. Leave a url if you have one! I'd like to visit your site too! Sunday, 07-Sep-2003 9:50 PM I wished that everytime I blinked, you were 1% better. My hair is extremely wet from just having had a shower. My hands are so dry, I'm feeling the eczema manifest. My face is cold from the cool wind blowing through the 1 inch gap I've left in the window. My brain is stirring and warm. My mom was so cute at the airport. The moment she saw us, she was so excited, she started pushing her trolley fast and almost ran into the woman in front of her. It was hilarious. She almost knocked over a man too :) It was great to see her. She looked so good :D She was so happy to see us :) ..which made it really hard to have to tell her that while she was on the plane, we got a call from our aunt about Grandma being really sick. I watched as the smile disappeared from my mom's face and she just looked like a little girl, sad and unsure. We waited quietly while she called back home and found out what was going on. Apparently Grandma hasn't been feeling well the last few days and it was nothing new, except this time she was feeling unwell and her temperature went pretty high and things looked pretty crucial. The doctor made a housecall and gave her medicine (I wonder what) that night and she was feeling better the next morning. The thing is..my aunt..she was saying some pretty awful things about how my grandma is dying and how she's going to die and how Grandpa doesn't want her to go to the hospital and that he feels if it's her time to go, it's best she's at home and passes in her sleep =(.. I know she was probably in a panic and hysterical but it's just not good to freak someone else out about it too. It's going to be up and down, up and down and sometimes I just don't know what to think about it all. I don't want to imagine what it will be like for my mom to have to experience ...she's crazy about her parents. Sigh. I wish I had enough sleep this weekend. The four hours I got the day my sister and I picked my mom up from the airport left me a walking zombie when we went out for lunch later and I had to drive to and fro. There was a street fair going on where we went, so that was nice:) Just mom and I. My sister had plans with friends. That afternoon I slept for a few hours and then we went out for dinner - steamboat :D I spent the earlier part of today at uni practicing some things with a few friends and then my mom, sister, her bf and I headed over to the city for the Malaysian Festival. The weather was pretty nice..for a little while, work escaped my mind and I had fun watching the people trying to dance on stage (some of them really need to keep their moves behind the closed doors of their bedroom). Ate good Malaysian food and downed it all with fresh sugar cane juice (because the line for teh tarik was way too long). Mmm:D My Salami comes back from his trip tomorrow! Good-o :D Saturday, 06-Sep-2003 0:52 AM And how things change in a matter of minutes. My aunt from Melbourne just called and she started crying. She wanted to know if my mom was back yet because she just got a call from Malaysia. My grandma is really sick. Really, really sick. So my aunt is trying to get a flight back tomorrow. . . . My sister just called too. She sounds like she's about to break down. She said my aunt just called her and said all these things that she couldn't bring herself to repeat. She didn't want to and I said it was okay. I've decided to go to the airport tomorrow, just incase it's the only chance I'll get to see my mom. I don't want to be the one to have to tell her. Not when she sees us and her face breaks into a huge smile because she's been missing her girls so much. That is five hours from now. Saturday, 06-Sep-2003 0:11 AM I can't concentrate with all this damn referred pain. Another Friday night spent at home. Trying to get this assignment done but I'm just so tired and unmotivated. Kindergarden Cop was on tonight...and even though I know that boys have a penis and girls have a vagina, it is always so enlightening to be taught it again by a little kid :) Class went on for so long today....M left abruptly right at the end. I thought she was busting to go to the toilet but she said later that she felt like she was going to pass out. She practically did, for when I went outside, I saw her sitting on the benches, her face looked the color of someone who'd been soaked in formaldehyde and stored in the fridge for two weeks. Another chiro student was sitting beside her, watching her face intently. I quickly rushed over and asked what happened and if she was okay. I was appalled to find that she had fallen on two people while rushing over to the bench (she said she couldn't feel her legs and knew she was going to fall) and they didn't even help her. They just ignored her and shifted over. Disappointing. So we got her to lie down with her feet up for awhile and waited with her until she felt better. Yesterday my sister was telling me all about how she went to this day spa thing (a gift certificate from her boyfriend) and that she had to strip down completely and wear a disposable g-string! She had a woman scrub her down with all these salts and wrap her in mud etc and after that, she had to wash herself off with the woman watching. She ended with a massage by this guy, where she had to lie on her back naked on the massage table! Yikes almighty:) I don't know if I could do that...I think I'd be way too embarassed, regardless of whether the masseuse was a female or male. Aaaanyhooo.. Mom comes back tomorrow. Frantically cleaned up the place earlier, although there wasn't too much to do. I also rushed over to the chiro after class because I can't hack this pain and 'jammed up' feeling anymore. Even my coccyx is referring pain. I am loaded with trigger points and it is damn annoying. My scalenes are atrocious and I'm getting crazy referred pain down to my fingers, on both sides :( I hate that. Oh and you know what? I asked my brother if he was over that Wednesday night (when I heard someone try to open the door) and he said no. Asked my sister too and she too said no. Definitely not the answers I was hoping for. I'm home alone again tonight. It would be really enjoyable except for that paranoia that's growing fast inside me. Wednesday, 03-Sep-2003 11:03 PM Oh man..I should be in bed and I would have been if not for the fact that just a few minutes ago I heard someone trying to open the front door. It's scaring the hell out of me. I heard the key go in and swivel left and right but it wasn't able to unlock the door. I'm home alone too :( My sister left an hour ago and after I showered, I went and double-locked the front and back door...I'm so glad I did but it's not helping calm my nerves much. I'm scared :( Wednesday, 03-Sep-2003 6:24 PM Thinking... I'm curious if this happens to everyone
else.... Tuesday, 02-Sep-2003 0:05 AM Sleepy. This morning I had a mini panic attack in bed. I was dead tired and wide awake at the same time, wondering about my career that is about to start very soon (I start my observation for clinic this Thursday!) and how much I should be knowing that I don't know or can barely remember. Sigh.....there is just SO MUCH information to retain that it's impossible. I'm scared and excited all at once...I hope it is good this Thursday. I'm a little concerned with having my shift during the day (12-4pm) as oppose to the evening shift (4-8pm). Do most people go at those hours? I mean..aren't people willing to come during lunchtime?? I'm worried a choce a really quiet shift where the only people I'll see are a few chiro students here and there and old, retired people with nothing to do and wanting company for a good afternoon chat. Oh brother. I've also come up with a superb tactic! Since I'll be in a clinic that's in a rather heavily asian-populated suburb, I'm thinking I'll bring in a huge box of packet noodles and that is what I will give to my patient after their treatment. 'Here you are. Enjoy the indomie! Thank you, come again!' Ahaha...okay..so maybe not. What if I had different types?? A range of noodles! Soup and dry?? Anyone? Anyone??? We got to play around with those exercise balls (the ones they use in Pilates etc) during Rehab today. It was cool...those exercises, when done correctly, are really damn hard to do. Gotta keep your spine in functional neutral, keep that posterior pelvic tilt, chin tuck etc...no one could do it exactly 'right' :) It was fun to watch though. Ahh..it's only been a day and I miss him greatly. The skies felt grey today and my heart was heavy. I hope he's having a great time hiking. I've finally finished the film that's been in my camera since visiting him so maybe I'll get that developed and send it to him so he'll get a surprise when he gets home. Man I'm sleepy..I've kind of got this small dilemma. I would love to have my windows open at night so there's air circulating while I sleep but I'm afraid of spiders. I kept thinking there was one on my neck last night and it just freaked me out. I did have the window open but during the night, I heard three loud taps, followed by another three loud taps. I thought someone was knocking on my window....it was only my blinds hitting the window (I think) and I finally got the nerve to get out of bed and do something about it. So yeah..it's either I wake up suffocating and dehydrated or I take the risk of saying hello to Charlotte when I wake up.
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