Wednesday, 25-May-2005 11:42 PM

First week at work!

Well I'm here safe and sound. The first few days were confusing. Couldn't contact the chiro or his assistant and kept getting the machine at the clinic. Yesterday was my first day at work! I wasn't expecting it though. I thought I was just going to be shown the clinic and the apartment I'm staying in etc. I found out there were patients booked in so that was a surprise. They were great - very friendly and welcoming and it made for a nice first day. The most memorable part of the day was having to walk all the way from the clinic to the apartment to look for the chiro's car (as I'm going to be driving it). We found the car but the key didn't fit so we had to head back but stopped to have a look inside the apartment first. The chiro had told his assistant that if I didn't want to cook the meat in his freezer, to give it to her so I said she could have it and when we opened the fridge, a million tiny flies and handful of big ones flew right at us. The fridge was oozing with brown liquid and when we opened the freezer, all the meat in there was decaying and liquified. It was repulsive. He had turned the electricity off. It smelled like someone died and frankly, it looked like it too. The ice cubes were brown =( It took forever to try and clean it out so we ended up throwing buckets of water in the fridge to flush it out. When I got back to the clinic, one of the lights had blown so with the assistan's help, I tried to change it. I was too short and balancing on an upside down pot on a chair with wheels was a bad idea. I ended up crushing the bulb in my hand and we decided it wasn't that important to change it. I should probably look after my hands better than that since they're what earns me a living.

After work I experienced what all my friends had warned me about. The pain of your first week at work. Coming home physically and mentally exhausted and crashing the minute you get in the house. I didn't even last that long. I was at the mall getting some food after work and I almost fell asleep there. I ended up sleeping at 9pm only because my sister called to talk.

Today I went back and the other car key doesn't fit in the car either! I took my mom's car and parked it in a sidestreet and after work today, I got a parking fine. Bastards! Every car along that street got one. I also went back to the apartment and the smell is still there. I ended up spraying the inside of the fridge with an anctibacterial spray and wiping it all down. While doing so, I noticed through the window that there was construction going on across the block. They're building a new apartment. One of the workers saw me and instead of working, he sat on one of the wooden panels on the construction site and watched me. He then started calling out to me and of all things to do, I ducked! Cleaned the bottom half of the fridge and when I got up again, there were TWO of them. Ugh. Don't know if I want to stay there now.

Oh, and another thing. I got food poisoning today :( It's been over 12 hours and I'm still getting sharp pains in my tummy. Other than that, it's been great :P I have my own office and wireless internet! Plus a great assistant who comes in every morning to put some essential oils in an oil burner for me.

Saturday, 21-May-2005 0:16 AM

The jetsetter is off again.

The past two days have been hectic. Yesterday I found out that the chiro I was going to work for had to rush off to the States. I wasn't supposed to start for another three or so weeks. Anyways, I had a big decision to make and I'm leaving tomorrow. Yup. Just like that. I'm excited. Scared. Hopeful. I'm going to embark on a journey that I'm sure will have many ups and downs and twists and turns but I'll come back a better person.

"You're a big girl" Salami said.

I have to run two clinics on my own. Wow.

I just hope the patients don't go 'who the hell are you?' when I rock up on Monday.

Sigh. You know you're not a true woman if you compromise shoes for textbooks when it comes to luggage space.

Wednesday, 18-May-2005 0:26 AM

Felt like the first day of Winter

It was freezing today. It poured. It was foggy. Cheeks were rosy. Dinner at the Ranch actually felt like I was far away in a huge cabin caved in by snow and everyone was having warm, hearty meals inside. I watched The Upside of Anger (hmm..strange movie) with a friend - tossed aside the principles of my profession for two hours and enjoyed the comfort of slouching down low in my seat and burying my face in a wooly scarf. It was a good night.

On a random note...I had a dream the other night that my teeth were falling out and it just so happened that I passed by a book sale today and the first book I saw was about interpreting your dreams. Of course I was curious so I flipped through the pages and now I wish I hadn't.

If you dream about your teeth falling out, it symbolizes maturing - like a child into an adult. Or it may symbolize a fear of aging as you are becoming old and helpless.

What the hell!?

I bought a bikini after that. I'll show you old and helpless!

Sunday, May 15, 2005

I accept.

This week has been a mad rush of interviews and phonecalls and meetings.

So...I accepted a job a few hours ago and right after it, I sat at my desk and cried.

I don't know if this is the right thing to do. I'm scared and for the first time in forever, I don't have you with me. I don't have the comfort of knowing that even if I mess up, you'll be there with open arms.

The worst part is, if it turns out great, I won't have you to share it with.

In fact, I won't really have anyone to share it with. This job...

is overseas.

Friday, 13-May-2005 0:14 AM

Decisions...decisions...

..and this time I go it alone. No magic 8 ball to help me :(

Sunday, 08-May-2005 11:20 PM

I feel like everyone is moving on without me. As though I'm at a standstill in my life. I won't allow the dust to collect on your picture though. I want the captured moment to stay alive and at night, when I stare at it, I'm there again and everything is picture perfect. For a minute of my day, I'm alright. Happy even. Then I feel the night creeping along and I'm reminded that it's only a daydream and I have to leave it to try and sleep. I hate it when I'm lying on my side and the tears start to well up in my eyes. I can feel it collect in a salty pool of sadness before breaking over the bridge of my nose and rolling down my cheek.

I wish you could hear me.

Tuesday, 03-May-2005 11:25 PM

Babysitting woes. Never chew off more than you can handle.

I was watching tv while the baby crawled around on the floor and before I knew it, I felt something warm and wet around my toes.

Hey! You can't eat my toes!

So I put my exercise ball between us.. You know, as a personal space barrier, for both our benefit.

I didn't expect this though -

...and here I was thinking he was being selective for my adorable and most delectable toes. Hmmf.