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Sunday, 29-Jun-2003 2:37 AM Parents VS Kid. I only bought this tissue box today and I think I've used half of it. It doesn't help that I'm trying out these new contacts and I have to wear them overnight and go back to the optometrist tomorrow to have them check it out. They'll see my eyes are really red and sore and puffy and think it's the contact lenses. ....and I'm wondering what kind of excuse I will have to come up with to explain the state of my eyes. I hate crying so much. I'm so tired of this. I wish it would stop. Friday, 27-Jun-2003 11:37 PM Wasted day.. What a waste of today. I can't believe just how lazy I was. Bushpig woke me up at 9:30am and much to my surprise, asked me if I had started on the assignment. 'What assignment?' 'you know, the assignment!' 'Bushpig! It's the 2nd day of the holidays!!' Eesh. I haven't even looked at the sheet to see what it's about. I don't want to :( It's my holidays damnit. Today was a day of mixed emotions. Salami and I were looking at some places to stay and I was all excited about it when my mom called. She doesn't want me to go and she'd rather I meet up with her and my dad and my sister and her boyfriend and basically hang out with them instead. It's my holidays damnit. I worked hard for it and I really don't want to spend every free minute I have with family. This happens all the damn time. I just want a break, and I don't consider hanging out with them, a break. No offense. There's nothing more I can say. From here on in it's just what I do. And I just noticed a speck of soup on my screen from the korean kim chi noodles I had earlier. Gross. However, I must say that it's reflecting rainbow colors, so at least it's a pretty kind of gross. But back to the dilemma. I'm starting to dwell on the fact that leaving will be hard and I don't want to say goodbye and I don't want to cry at the airport either. I don't want it to be the last hug for god knows how long... Thursday, 26-Jun-2003 11:19 PM 13 DOWN! Knock em out! :D
I'M DONE WITH EXAMS. Yay! Would have written an entry yesterday but I was absolutely exhausted and completely out of it. The exam was pretty good. Much better than I expected and our lecturer (the one who flew in from the States) even left us a note. It was all about how he was proud of us and that we did well in the practical exam given everything we had been through and to relax for this one. It said 'You know everything. It is in you. All the material in the exam you have heard, seen or read before' blah blah...how sweet:P Anyhow, as soon as the exam was over, EVERYONE went straight to the bar. It wasn't even open yet. I think everyone else was envious since this was the beginning of exam week and we finished on the starting day. But hey, no one else has that many exams! The boys and I went over to the mall to get some lunch and then we played a game of Daytona just for fun :D Everyone else had the correct change so they waited for me while I got some dollar coins. When I got back to the cars, they were all ready to go. They left me with the car that had the dodgy steering wheel :P Everyone chose manual but me - heh, typical girl. But! Guess who thrashed the males asses?! ME. Hah! Reebok was making fun of the way I drive..he was saying he could see me putting my indicators on at every corner :P Whatever man :P It's funny the insults they come up with just to save face :D Went to the bar after that and then we headed off to the park nearby to play football and basketball :D They'd been planning on having a game of basketball after the last exam for a few weeks. I kept saying I didn't want to play three on three cause I didn't know how to play basketball. I surprised myself :D I haven't touched a basketball in about 5 years (since highschool when we had to do it once in a blue moon for Physical Education) and I got the most number of free throws in a row (6!). Reebok finally topped it off on 7, which he was going on about how it wasn't much and he's used to doing more. Hmm, once again, it's funny the things they come with just to save face :P Reebok actually tried to teach me how to do a layup. I can't, for peanuts. I'm sure it amused them to watch me try. He was saying 'how can you not do a layup and be able to do freethrows?! It's usually the other way around.' Hah..I don't know..that's just me for ya :P Aaaaanyhow. Went back to the bar after that, then went home to watch the State of Origin! Woo! What a thrashing :D I didn't know Craig Wing was playing. Damn he's cute. He's so small compared to the rest of them though :) This morning, Salami and I were supposed to talk about places we'd stay out on this little roadtrip we're taking but I was being a pain in the ass and basically deflated all his enthusiasm. So that was that..he ended up leaving to go lift weights. Hmm..and I went for some retail therapy. Hah! I haven't gone shopping in SO long, I didn't even know half the stores had closed down and been replaced with new ones. Anyhow, I don't know why, but I bought a few things I'd probably never wear :) Got a black handbag too (that was probably in fashion about 5 years ago :P). It was on sale! I couldn't help myself :P I also tried on a bikini...yikes. It looked nice. Just not on me :P Bought my brother's gf a gift too. Her b'day was a few days ago and I was too busy studying to be able to get her anything. Anyhow, I hope she likes it. She's real girly-girl, so I opted for the Rituelle Fusion Gift pack! I looooove Rituelle stuff. It smells so good :D I got her the jasmine and hibiscus pack. Mmm...goodstuff =D
Man it feels so good being able to stay up late and know there's nothing major waiting for you tomorrow. Also, I found out today that they're showing Felicity repeats every afternoon. Thought I was over it but I watched it today while ironing my clothes and man! I love that show. Not the end episodes..that was just poor, but the earlier ones were great! I absolutely love Javier's character. He cracks me up. I wish I had the series on dvd or something :D I was thinking about getting my hair cut...but then A came to uni last week and chopped hers so now I can't. I tried telling Salami this but he doesn't understand. Of course he doesn't. He's a guy. Guys don't understand anything :P You CAN'T cut your hair right after your friend does it. That's copying. I mean, if you do a completely different style, okay, but you can't get the same style or the same color. That's just against the rules. So now...now I will have to opt for sporting the 'Cousin It' look. Okay, I'm out for the night. Monday, 23-Jun-2003 12:21 PM Hectic! I had a crazy morning. I decided I didn't want to get into uni too early before my exam...you know, mass of panicking people, stress, last minute cramming....didn't want to have to deal with that since I wasn't too confident going into this exam. So I'm about 70% of the way there and it dawned on my that I might not have my wallet with me. Would have been no big deal except that my student card is in there and you can't enter the room or sit the exam without it. So I'm scrummaging around my bag while trying to keep my eyes on the road and I don't feel my wallet. Pulled over. No wallet. Freaked out. Sped home like a maniac...cut people off at the round-a-bouts, tail gaited all these cars ...felt like reckless driving but I'm going to call it desperation driving instead, so it looks like I have a reason to be driving that way. I even drove home a different way, hoping it would be faster. Anyhow, I get home, I can't find my wallet. 'Don't do this to me' I kept thinking. I finally found it under a packet of sultanas and those bloody handgrips! For some strange reason, I decided to check for the student card even though I knew it'd be in there....but it wasn't. Freaked out again. Ran around my room frantically searching for it. Kept trying to figure out what I was doing and what I was wearing in the days between my last exam and this one. Finally found the card in a coat pocket. Tripped over my chair on the way out. Sped back to uni. Almost hit the rear of this asian dude's honda accord (hey, I know you're only a P-plater but can't you drive a little FASTER than that?!?!). Parked the car. RAN through the university to the allocated building. Ran up the stairs and saw a girl following behind me (which made me feel so much better knowing I wasn't the only late one). Told her 'we're so late!' and didn't realise the exam room was right near me when I said it. Everyone could hear. Everyone looked at us. Got in, calmed myself down for a few minutes thinking I'd made it on time, and then realised reading time had already started. Ah well..that was fine. The poor girl that was following behind me was told she couldn't bring her handphone into the room, even if it was switched off. They actually told her to hurry up and run back to her car or go hide it somewhere. With all that said. I was relieved to find that it was all multiple choice and no short answer although the multiple choice questions would have been extremely hard had I not looked at the study guide the night before and this morning. The majority of the questions were the same as the ones in the study guide practice test. I felt so lucky. It was almost like I was cheating. I think because I didn't actually DO the practice test...what I did was I circled all the answers in (that were provided at the back of the book) and then read each question and their corresponding answer. So it wasn't really testing if I knew it..but rather if I remembered reading it. Anyhow, no complaints =D I finished in an hour. Checked the noticeboard in the other building after I left. There were all these students around it so I knew something had been put up. Damn right. Results for the Preclin theory and practical exam. I was shocked by my preclin theory mark - 39/40!?!? Wow. I know which damn question I got wrong too. I got 39/50 for the practical which I'm happy with. It seemed to be up there with the marks so that's good. Although, the breakdown for that exam has me a little curious. There were three parts...muscle testing, which I thought I aced, and didn't (14/16), Blood pressure reading (10/18) and the last one was random - I had to do liver palpation (15/16), which I thought I failed. Hmm...well the blood pressure reading thing I expected since I stupidly pumped up the thing with my left hand (why!?!) and while doing so, accidentally hit the release valve and had to start all over again. Okay. So breathe.....breathe.....ONE more exam to go. I can't believe I've done 12. I need to get some food in my stomach and get cramming on Rehab. Oh, pictures. I took these when I got back. All out of desperation! Click to enlarge.
Sunday, 22-Jun-2003 9:32 AM Procrastinating. I've just been so excited about the upcoming holidays, it's been almost impossible for me to concentrate on these exams. I wonder what everyone else does.. On a side note, don't you hate when you swallow tablets and they just stay suspended in your throat all day? No matter how much water I guzzle down, it's still there :( Friday, 20-Jun-2003 8:22 AM Squeezing my way to the size of a wooden spoon. I have such skinny arms. It's not funny :P Sometimes I'll think, hey, they look pretty muscly today and then I'll get into a skills class, be partnered up with a rather plump guy, place my arm over his back while he's lying on his side, and he'll make it look like a toothpick sinking in a half baked sponge cake. So! I'm hoping these babies will help in the forearm department:
While I'm at it...here's something else I like to squeeze ;P heehe..it's good for reflexology! :D
Wednesday, 18-Jun-2003 7:54 PM Couldn't sleep for peanuts last night. Talk about nerves. That exam was t.o.u.g.h . I've had so little sleep and it's making me walk around in a daze. Everyone else has their First Aid theory exam tomorrow so they all frantically dashed off the moment the exam was over. I actually got the times wrong for the exam and was pretty early. Freaked me out because I got to the building and there was absolutely no one around and the door was shut and the blinds were drawn and I panicked that they had already started and I was left out. So I rushed over to another building to see if I had got the building wrong and there were some people there from my course and they said the exam didn't start until 9:20am. I thought it started at 9am...still! People didn't come until much later... Yesterday while studying in the library (I'm embarassed to say I did another 11.5 hour day there) I saw these guys outside having a cigarette and coffee and next to them, this lorikeet (its a bird:P) flew close by and one of the guys stuck his hand out and the bird hopped on over to him. It was so cute. It wasn't too afraid and kept hopping around, getting closer to him. He was trying to feed it a crumpled maple leaf though :P Anyhow, I was kind of wishing that I could be out there, taking a break, lounging around, enjoying the sunshine. But noooo...so back to it I went and two minutes later I hear lorikeets....and the sounds were rather loud. I look up and there's two of them right next to me, on the window's edge! I put my finger to the window and one of them waddled over and pushed it's face close to the window. It was the most cutest thing! (Note: the windows don't open, so the birds and I couldn't get personal :P ) We looked at each other a little while and then they flew off. Strangely enough, it motivated me to study...at least for about half an hour. Anyhow, I've been hesitant about flying over to see Salami. I don't know why...just keep thinking that I want to, and then I don't want to etc. So anyhow, the poor guy has been putting up with my constant complaints. My rollercoaster of emotions. I finally got off my ass and just went and booked the damn thing and I'm glad I did. I see him in a few weeks! :) Okay, zip the excitement. It's back to studying. Tuesday, 17-Jun-2003 9:25 PM Neurology exam tomorrow. Shit. Monday, 16-Jun-2003 7:52 PM I am a Nerd. But hey, it seemed a fashionable thing today. Left and 7pm and it was still packed. I just spent about 11 hours at the university library today. I am BEAT. Went to get some groceries after at the mall and I got completely lost...stupid freaking carparks with no direction. Stupid lack of signs. Stupid hidden ramps that lead nowhere. I ended up at some quick exit and was out on the mainroad. Had to circle around and come back in. Sheesh. To top it off, I finally park the car and decide I will just walk up the damn pedestrian ramp to the supermarket and on my way, some car pulls up and an Italian family ask me how to get to the cinemas. AHAHa...of ALL people, you want to ask ME!? I told them I just got lost myself. They all just stare at me. Blink once or twice. Okaaay...so they want to get to the cinema. How should I know?! 'Sure! You just have to go up the ramp. All the way to the top level. That's where the cinemas are' and then I said 'goodluck!' and we both went on our way. Hahaaha... Anyways, I'm brain dead and exhausted...almost fell asleep driving home. Not good, not good at all. And you know what..I'm worried about this big Neurology exam. I have no idea what I've been studying...I don't know if it's right. I think it's only about 3% of what I need to know and I have only one more day to get the rest of the 97% in my head. Oh man :( I'm so excited about the upcoming holidays, I just can't think straight. I keep smiling to myself...at the library, in between chapters, on the way to the car, in the toilet...hah! I can't wait :D But alas...three exams are in my way on this road to happiness :( They're like those spikey speed humps that pierce your wheels when you drive over them the wrong way.... Saturday, 14-Jun-2003 11:53 PM Don't mind me. I'm just tired. What on earth?? I went to check the news online for tomorrow's weather and anything major and this is what I find: Durian-flavoured Sutra Fiesta-brand condoms are the latest gimmick to socialise the message of safe sex .... "The problem with condoms in Indonesia is people here are really shy about them, so when you have a durian condom it's something funny and we can get people to talk about them with their friends and their family because it's no longer just about sex" I don't know about you, but I'm thinking...what kind of person wants their orifices smelling like durian??! What's next? A full range of hot and spicy flavors - tom yum, chicken curry and asam laksa. Mm, so arousing. Saturday, 14-Jun-2003 8:40 AM 10 down, 3 more to go. The big week is over. Thank goodness. Eesh! What a week! I'm glad it's over. The Peripheral Skills and Ortho theory exam kicked my ass to the moon. They wasted so much time giving us out one sheet at a time. They should've just stapled the two together and sorted all this out beforehand. Then we end up running into the next hour when there's supposed to be some other class on and their lecturer walks in and starts getting ready ...gees. Radiology slide exam...that was right after my Preclinical Skills one and I was cramming it in like mad in the library. Wasted ten minutes trying to find a seat (bloody hell people! evacuate! dont you know i have an exam in one hour!??!) and then after I found it, I wasted about 20 thinking about the exam I just had. Grr. Anyhow, the Radiology slide exam...I got there on time and the room was already full so I had to sit right up the back - second last row and it worried me a bit because I didn't know if I'd be able to see all the litle fractures etc on the slides. Strangely enough, I found myself heading towards 100%...boy was I shocked. I left the room happy. I thought I'd done really well...until the next group finished (we were split into two groups because there's too many students) and the lecturer went through the answers and well..I definitely didn't get 100% :D Got a big guy for my diversified skills exam.....why does that always happen to me?? Plus I have to choose a card where most things on it are done with my left hand??! Ugh...left hand + big guy = bad. Anyhow, we'll keep our fingers crossed on that one. Friday's Peripheral Orthopaedics exam was okay..I wanted to do better but I shouldn't complain. I partered Reebok (as this exam was a free for all, meaning it's not in alphabetical order and you can pair up with whoeever. This also means huge lines in the corridor outside) and he went first and got a mind blank. One of those nights, my bro's gf cooked dinner. I came home starving, at around 4pm and she was in the kitchen making stuff so I couldn't do anything. I asked her how long she'd been cooking for and she said she started at 1pm. She didn't finish until 6:30pm. FIVE AND A HALF HOURS! I know it's a nice gesture and all but I just wanted to make myself something quick to eat and I hate that I can't. The food was pretty good though, I have to say. My cousins came over and they all left after that while I studied for the next exam :( Bah, I think I was complaining for the sake of complaining. She's nice..it's just...I don't know. I'd still rather my own privacy in the house. I don't like sharing:P Tuesday, 10-Jun-2003 0:18 AM Might be MIA the next few days. I have 8 things this week. 2 assignments due and 6 exams. SIX EXAMS in four days! AHHHH! The stress. The panic. But strangely enough, I am getting enough sleep and I am not freaking out as much as I used to in previous years...I've mentioned this before but it really does surprise me. I'm wondering if it's the stretching and yoga every morning or if I've just finally learned a thing or two from previous years. Hmm..better not speak too soon eh? I can't wait til this week is over...fingers crossed it all goes well though. I hope this flu-type illness disappears completely tomorrow. Felt all feverish in the library today. There were SO many people at uni today...I guess we're all in the same boat...crammers unite? Nah..I'm sure the majority are good ole students studying for exams that are like two weeks away:P I wish I was that disciplined. Sunday, 08-Jun-2003 9:24 AM Day 3: still sick. Ugh. Still sick. Which means I've done minimal work this weekend. Tomorrow's a public holiday though so the cramming begins. I hate having one part of your nose blocked and the other part you're able to breathe so clearly, it actually hurts. It's a lose-lose situation. Lips still sting :( What the hell is up with that? I was feeling so crappy last night, I ended up sleeping at 10:10pm, hoping I'd wake up at 11 and be refreshed enough to do some work and watch the womens tennis finals. I got up at 12:30am, just in time to see Clijsters giving her speech :( I love how she can speak so many different languages. I wish I could myself. Anyways..on to more important things eh? Like getting my lazy ass out of these pjs and doing some work. Friday, 06-Jun-2003 6:39 PM I'm shivering. I'm tired. I'm on the verge of getting cranky. I'm hungry. I miss my mom - she flew back to Malaysia this morning. I'm sick. I feel like a bee has stung my lips everyday for days on end now. My throat is sore and dry. Bloated. I hope a flu is not approaching. I'm sure standing in the gale-force winds yesterday did not help much. I was walking to the carpark and a whole storm of maple leaves circled around me. It was quite amazing. I wish it could have been captured on camera instead of just my mind. I can't share it, you see.
Hmm..I should have taken a picture of my goosebumps but I've already unplugged the webcam :) Yesterday before the exam, I was outside with some friends and one of them gasped and peered at me and then said 'Oh my gosh! Are you wearing makeup!? Are you trying to impress the examiners??' I was so embarassed. Everyone turned to look. I should have said 'a bee stung my lips, you ass! Now apologise!' Really though, my lips are stinging and in the mornings they're all puffy and I can't eat anything without it stinging and hurting and all that not-so-nice stuff. On the upside, they posted two exam results today on the noticeboard and I did pretty well. 18/20 for Rehabilitation - something I was not expecting since I didn't think it went so well. 16/20 for Neurology which is above average. The highest was 18 and only one person got that, and about 10 people got 17 so I'm pretty happy :) Since there's about 140 students too. Now lets hope things stay that way eh? Porridge for dinner? By porridge, I mean, soggy rice and water blended, with maggi sauce :( Thursday, June 5, 2003 11:52 PM Tonight I got a call from my old best friend from the good ole childhood days in Bangkok! She's here from Singapore for holidays. We talked almost an hour and it was great..it's so cool how we can just joke around and things aren't awkward. I'm so sarcastic to her :) I won't get a chance to see her this time around because I've just got no time...that seems really selfish of me doesn't it? It's almost like..sheesh, if you have time to be checking email and typing updates, you've got time girl. The thing is...as much as people DO have time...they fear that the time spent socializing could be spent doing the things they're supposed to do..the things they would be doing had they not been out having fun (although we all know we most likely would have sat on our ass and procrasinated anyway). Anyhow, what it really is, is saying that I don't have time to give myself that subconscious guilt trip lecture in my head. Exam today seemed okay...I really haven't a clue how to feel about it. It may have felt like the set-ups for the adjustments were good but it's really up to the supervisor and how they see it as. Whether your line-of-drive was at the right angle, whether the torque was right, your contacts etc. It's all about biomechanics of the body and sometimes....I'm just not geeky enough :P I wish I knew it all though. Somehow, I'm managing..better than before. I'm getting more things done in less time - not fluffing around as I always did in previous years. It feels GREAT to get things done prior to their due date. I love the feeling. I just did two assignments tonight (usually it takes me all week to do one!) and they're not due til Tuesday next week but I've got 6 exams so this is something extra I don't need on my hands. Tuesday, 03-Jun-2003 8:41 PM i. P.a.n.i.c. I don't like when this happens,
but all the stresses caught up with me and I had some kind of a
panic attack today. I wasted so much time..and I know it has to
do with being interrupted when I have my day planned out ahead.
Tuesdays are the only the days I start at 3pm. Every other day I
start at 8am or 9am. So I had planned on getting a little bit of
this and a little bit of that done and all my Preclinical reading
for tomorrow's exam but my mom comes into my room saying I have
to go to the bank with her so they can witness my signature on a
form (turned out to be 6 forms) and so the day was wasted waiting
for my brother to get ready and then driving to and fro and waiting
around at the bank while my mom talked friendly talk to some 'friends'
there. I was so irritated. I could feel it building up inside me
and I'm grateful I didn't get a tension headache from it - something
that happens to me often when I have one of those snowballed stress
attacks. I ended up waiting for her outside, leaning against Hong
Kong Bank by the busstop, reading my notes. Anyways. Exam 8am tomorrow. Better study :( Sunday, 01-Jun-2003 8:11 PM Uhm, no, tomorrow is NOT a public holiday. I sure wish it were. I don't want to do my Rehabilitation exam tomorrow :( My timing is all out of whack because I was up til pretty late this morning (2:30am, which is now considered super late for me since I've turned into an early bird - not by choice :P) talking to Salami. I said I'd give him a call but he said not too early, so I was waiting until I'd think he'd be awake but I was getting so darn tired myself and it was only 12:20am. Anyhow, he was online just when I was going to shutdown the computer and I told him I couldn't really sit anymore, my back was just killing me. So I got ready for bed and called him from there :D hehe. I'm efficient, see? That way I can go right to bed after =) It's so nice listening to him...I don't know why I say it every single time, but it just is. We played a game online and I kicked his butt, as usual =) We haven't done that in a long while so it was pretty fun. However, Ben was talking to me about relationship problems (his on again, off again relationship with his girlfriend) so it was a little distracting. He seemed amazed at some of the stuff I was saying, but it seemed rather obvious to me (just like Dr. Phil's advice:P) but I accepted the 'pearls of wisdom' compliment he gave me happily :D Now my boy is asleep and I'm awake and I'm daydreaming about how he's lying in bed. I bet the sheets are all wrinkled around him. He's got that calm look about him and he's breathing slowly. Hmm =) It's funny how the more you stare at a person breathing, the more you begin to change your breathing pattern to match theirs. Have you ever realised that?
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