Sunday, January 29, 2006 10:58 AM

Gong Hei Fatt Choi!

There's been SO much going on, I don't know where to begin. I'll leave it for another day but I just wanted to wish everyone a Happy Chinese New Year! I'm off to celebrate with the only member of my family here in Sydney - my sis!

Sunday, 15-Jan-2006 12:56 PM

4 nuggets, half a pack of chips and a few spoons of potato and gravy.

I'd been wanting to vent out about the whole 'people who smoke' thing and yesterday in the car I started thinking about what I really wanted to say but I see Lynn's entry about it and I'm now feeling like ooh, case covered, she's vented for me. ( Shit, I just knocked over my water. Entry about my clumsiness and just how bad it is will have to be for another day.) But yeah, just a little itty bit on the smoking thing. It only really gets to me when I come home from a night out and I STINK of smoke. My clothes, my hair, my skin...it is so disgusting and to think that it came from someone's mouth and landed on all the fibres of my clothing. Gross. Now I don't really care if you smoke. I'm sure everyone tries it during high school because it was the cool thing to do and I've even let it slide that most my high school friends weren't smart enough to figure out that that's all it was - the thing to do in high school . What's really gotten to me lately is that my uni friends, who are smart (or supposedly), have all started smoking again. I mean, these are all healthcare professionals. If kids are smart enough to decide at the age of 17 that they want to study a course about health and lifestyle, how can they come out at 23 with a Masters degree and a license to help others better their health with a cigarette in their mouth!? What the hell are they stressing about now? The hard part is over. I don't get it. The worst is that I seem to be the only one who doesn't smoke BUT I'm the one that gets affected by it the most because I don't have anything extra filtering the smoke before it infiltrates MY lungs.

But, with this said, I can't be all (and I'm definitely not trying to be) 'look at me, I don't smoke so therefore I'm perfect'. I do drink, I don't get enough sleep, I eat junk and I slouch. SO. I am a hypocrite in almost every other way.

Anyways, since it's only a little itty bit of a vent, I'll just move on with the subject. Last night, after a long night out, the girls decided to get some KFC. K's friend burst out at me saying 'WHY did you get SO MUCH!?' ................SO MUCH!? I got 6 nuggets, chips and potato & gravy. Furthermore, she starts eating my nuggets! Wtf?! Here's a note to anyone who does not know me but may someday be dining with me. If I order the smallest option of SIX nuggets, six MEASLY nuggets, you MAY NOT HAVE ONE. Christ, unless I am in love with you or you are my grandparent or a child under the age of 5, don't even THINK about it. I mean, gees, two nights ago some guy I met was insisting I was too small to be a chiro. That's because the bigger girls are eating all my food! :(

Tuesday, 10-Jan-2006 1:55 AM

Ahh I'm such the good friend. G calls at 12:15am and asks me what I'm doing. It's Monday night...no, sorry, Tuesday morning and I'm already in my pjs but I tell him I'm still up, dressed and not doing anything. His car battery died and he's stuck at the mall's parking lot after watching a movie with R. Sure, I'll come on over with the jumper cables. I change out of my pjs, put my contacts back on and rush out the door.

My friends have been telling me that R likes me. NO HE DOESNT! - that's always my response. How could he? We've had a hate-hate relationship for a good length of time. But last week when he scooped me up off my feet and into his arms for no apparent reason while we were all walking along the beach, I started to think that maybe they were right about him. Tonight as I pulled up in front of G's car, there he was, leaning against the railing WITHOUT HIS SHIRT ON! Oh my god. They're right! Disgusting. Seriously, am I suppose to look and be impressed? Is my jaw supposed to have dropped at the sight of his gorgeous (or not so) body? Am I supposed to blush from girlish embarassment? Are you out of your mind?! It's 2006. Who DOES that!? Gosh, I should have taken a picture.

Friday, 06-Jan-2006 11:37 AM

This is depressing.

Gosh. I can be so down on myself sometimes. One little bad thought and a seed is planted. Negativity spreads all through me, resulting in a sleepless night and I'm back down in that slump I thought I'd left behind not so long ago. I don't know if 3 years from now I'll be looking back at this thinking, pfft, getting that work visa? Piece of cake.....or if I'd still be sitting here, in this very room finally deciding to give up on this dream. Why didn't I just do an office job and crawl my way up? I'm not opposed to working for someone and apparently I like to stare at a computer screen for endless hours.

Someone signed my guestbook with a nice little note basically saying I had it all. A great, wonderful life. How sweet I thought. But really, hmm....maybe if I had this...and that....and one or two things more, then I'd have everything. Enough for me to say I had it all anyway.

Sunday, 01-Jan-2006 5:01 PM

It is the very first day of a new year.

It is currently 45C (113F).

Our A/C doesn't work.

I'm melting. Even my beads of sweat are sweating!