Saturday, 31-Jan-2004 0:34 AM

Grr. Freakin pissed off right now. Last night my sister was too lazy and didn't want to get groceries while we were out. I asked her if she'd be home tonight for dinner and she said she finished around 8:30pm so should be home around 9pm. Okay...so I went out to get groceries today and decided to make food that she'd been wanting to eat. All this tomato-ish shit that she likes but I don't quite.

She comes home at 11:30pm with her bf, goes straight into the bathroom to shower (when I was just about to too. Bloody hell. Big cross mark number one.). I ask her bf if they went out tonight and he says 'just to Newtown to eat dinner.'

GRRRRR. Sis!!?! Do you not think you could have called at least!? You're the one that boasts about how you organise everything and take care of the family and all that crap. What a load of shit. I've been washing up all her dishes the past week and half too btw.

Anyhow, I didn't say anything. I felt like punching her head, really. So I thought it'd be best I just pack up the food and go to my room and yell there.

The other thing is, I've been waiting to see if she'll help clear out the fridge. It's got all the food from the bbq they had the other weekend. Raw meat, cooked meat, corn etc that's going off by the day. I've already cleared half of it out and I refused to do any more than that but I had to tonight so I could fit in the dinner I cooked. Freakin hell, I'm pissed off.

Friday, 30-Jan-2004 11:05 AM

The dresses.

I forgot to mention that on Wednesday, my bro, sis and I trekked out all the way to Blacktown (way out west) to check out this place that sold and rented out bridesmaids dresses. Of course it had to be babyblue so that made choosing one easier as there were only three designs in baby blue. What IS IT with asian girls and their obsession with babyblue!? It's like that bachelorette who was nuts about all things pink. Blah. Plus the fact that we're all look pasty white against that color doesn't help much either. It's like we're porridge. Bland.

So my sister tried one design on, I tried another and we came out so my brother could see and choose. They both liked the one I was wearing but I preferred the one my sister was wearing.

Anyhow, to cut a long story short, they chose the one I was wearing. The one where you damn well need big boobs to fill out the dress. Great. My sister tried the same dress on, only a slightly larger size and the lady working there goes 'Here ya go love, just pop these in.' and handed her two booby pad things to fill up the chest area. AhHHH. I'm starting to wonder what I got myself into with this whole wedding thing.

Thursday, 29-Jan-2004 10:57 PM

Long day at the clinic today. We had to do stocktake. UGH. At one stage I needed to use the bathroom (located outside the clinic) and I noticed this man on his mobile phone standing outside. He watched me walk to the toilets and then watched me walk back to the clinic and kept looking at me. So I gave him this filthy look. Then as I was walking toward the clinic door, he made it more of a point to look at me and then he said hello. He tried to read my name badge and then put his hand out and introduced himself. Said he was a chiro and that he was going around to our clinics seeing what could be improved etc. WHOOPS.

Anyways, he talked a damn lot. We got into a discussion in the backroom about the good vs the bad stuff at the clinic. He said it'd be ten minutes of our time but he ended up staying there what seemed like three hours. That meant leaving Bushpig at reception by himself cause M was doing her patient's care plan in another room. Bushpig looked so stressed at one stage, I decided to go help him (was kind of looking for an excuse to leave the 'discussion' anyway as I wasn't getting a word in). He said he had just been yelled at by the supervisor at the other clinic, over the phone because he was taking too long to do the stocktaking. It took us forever to do. Partway through it, one of the interns was taking xrays which meant someone at the front desk had to help, so I went to do it. Good I guess, cause I need the xray numbers. Not that I had a clue what I was doing..but it was fun getting to develop the xrays in the dark room. That patient had a suspected foot fracture.

Anyhow, when I was done with that and back at the front desk, Bushpig and M refused to answer the phone when the Supervisor called again to check on the stocktaking so I had to do it. Grr. M got yelled at because one of the patients called to say she was running late and M had to tell her that we couldn't treat her today because we couldn't find her file (wtf!? You don't say that to the patient!! It wasn't even the reason why we had to refuse her, it was just something added on top of it all). When we closed up, it felt like I was having to do everything. M kept asking me what to write for the cashbag and cash summary sheet etc while I was trying to do all the computer info stuff and call the other supervisor to give him the info he wanted at the same time. Ten minutes before we're about to leave, our Supervisor asks me to write up the xray report.

"But I haven't even looked at the xrays yet."

"That doesn't matter."

Riiight...okay..so I did it. I wrote up an xray report without even looking at the xrays or knowing what this patient presented with. She signed it and it's being sent off to our senior radiography lecturer to check over.

Ahh well. At least I got to have two dinners tonight :) Went to eat some good Malaysian food. I had chicken laksa and roti canai and teh tarik to top it off :D Mmmm.

Oh, and if you're up for killing your eyes and wasting your time trying to beat my lousy score of 1104, have a go at this.

Thursday, 29-Jan-2004 9:57 PM

What Famous Leader Are You?

Wednesday, 28-Jan-2004 0:14 AM

Australia Day

I said I wasn't going to help paint anymore but somehow I ended up doing just that yesterday. Strolled around Darling Harbour first and checked out the foodstalls. Had some Malaysian and Thai food there for brunch and then painted for a few hours. T came up with a brilliant idea on how to stop the back door thing from swinging open. My brother wanted to shout us all to dinner so everyone went home and showered and met up again in the city. We wanted to eat at Cockle Bay Wharf but it was packed! Inside and out. Everyone was watching the tall ships come into the harbour (scuse the blurry pics!). It was 8:30pm or so and we wandered from restaurant to restaurant trying to find a place to eat but most places had an Australia Day Set Menu for $60 per head so we decided to keep looking. My sister was such a grumpy ass..she was complaining to her bf the whole time, in what she thought was a discreet manner but I could hear her even through the crowd. She actually stopped all of us, stood in front of us and said she wanted to watch the fireworks which were on in half an hour. So we all stood around and waited half an hour for the fireworks and then another half hour while they did the fireworks display. It was quite good...no where near as good as New Years though. They had these new fireworks that I absolutely adored. They were like the miniature version of those big plain gold ones (my fave!).

After that we headed into Chinatown and ate there. Servings was a little small and the waiter kept forgetting everything. Forgot to serve the drinks. Then only brought the beers that some of the guys ordered. Forgot the tea. Missing two sets of chopsticks. Missing some serviettes. Forgot the rice. Gees. I was too hungry to care. We ordered about 5 dishes to share between 6 of us and I was still starving at the end of it. Ahh well. Nothing better than coming home to this. Mmm :)

Oh! I almost forgot! On the way home, we passed the Entertainment Centre and what seemed like the entire Sydney teenage population. The Australian Idol concert had just finished I guess and all these kids were outside screaming and trying to look cool. At one stage a whole bunch of them screamed so loud, it started a screaming frenzy and everyone ran to the back of the building. We had to pass that way to get to the car so we took a look at what was going on. Sure enough. Guy, Shannon and Milsy were signing autographs etc. I tried to take some pics but couldn't really see. I had to hold my hand way up high and get on my tippy toes (wearing heels too!:( ). The only thing I could clearly see was the buttcrack of the girl beside us who was being piggy-backed by her boyfriend. I did contemplate taking a picture of that. Glad I didn't.

Kind of annoyed that all my pics came out shocking. I can't seem to take pics at night :(

Monday, 26-Jan-2004 0:30 AM

Eatin healthy.

It is not a good idea to lift free weights while watching people audition for American Idol 3. I almost dropped the dumbell on my toes and pulled a muscle laughing.

Helped paint again today. My brother and sister were already at the apartment painting before I got there. My brother was telling my sister about his whole situation with S (his fiancee). He doesn't even know if he loves her. And they're still having the baby. Good start. Lately my brother's been calling up just to talk to my sister or coming over and talking to her about stuff and he doesn't care if I'm listening but neither of them ever look at me. I feel like I'm dead and revisiting my past...kind of like Scrooge when the ghost of the past brought him back a few years in his life and all he can do is stand there and watch because no one can see him. Sometimes things like this make it much easier for me to leave this city.

My eating habits have been a bit off lately. I ate a whole bowl of broccoli and then made waffles with blueberries, icecream and maple syrup for dinner.

Was watching some of that Australia Day concert thingy...who on earth are all these people!!?

I'm so out of date with new Australian singers...there's so many of them now I can't keep track. Nikki Webster gave me nightmares with that dress she was wearing and the whole sexy dancing thing. Yiiiikes. Sorry kiddo.

Anyhow, my sis came back with her bf and I was too embarassed so I changed the channel. She hadn't eaten dinner yet so the three of us headed out to eat. Was planning on some asian food...I wanted soup noodles but somehow we ended up eating at Newtown at this cafe that had a waiting line. I don't understand it sometimes...my sister is "so hungry" that she storms out of the car as soon as I park and speed-walks away, leaving a trail of angerpuff behind her. Then she cares to wait in line at a cafe when she can go to any other place that's slightly less crowded. They seat us at the 'windowsill' where you have to bend down to your knee level in order to use the table to eat anything off of. We ended up changing to an actual table and she ordered right away and T (her bf) pointed out that she rolled her eyes and gave this horrid look when I asked the waitress if I could change the drink I ordered.

See, now I'm not saying I'm the greatest or anything....but even if I'm craving a particular food that we were going to go and eat and we go someplace else, I try not to let my disappointment show and this happens a lot of times because my sister gets her way a lot. But really, on the inside it's killing me to drink thick western soup when all I really want is chinese boiled water with noodles and vegetables thrown in. But I'm always thinking about how it would make my sister feel if I acted the way she does when she doesn't want to eat something.

Alright alright...must try to stop slandering my sister. It's getting harder and harder not to though.

Sunday, 25-Jan-2004 0:36 AM

I watched Along Came Polly tonight. I loved it! Kept laughing...Ben Stiller grows on me :) I went with my sister and her bf tonight...yeah I know...it was probably a case of the 'pity-my-little-sister-for-she-has-no-one-to-hang-out-with-on-a-Saturday-night thing. My sister was telling me in the car that she wanted to eat at this Indonesian place but I didn't really want to. When we met up with her bf, she asked what he wanted to eat and he wanted pizza or pasta, which I was kind of craving too. We did take a look at the Indonesian place but neither of us really wanted to eat there and she acted like that was completely fine but when we sat down to eat at the Pizzeria, she started complaining about her food and how crap it was and that if she wanted to, she could just go to the supermarket and get a frozen pack etc etc.

Bah, enough about my sister and her short fuse and neverending complaints.

Last week ended my obsession for chocolate chip cookies and chocolate chip muffins. Instead of eating a proper lunch one of those days, I opted for a large cookie from Muffin Break. Big mistake. I felt pretty damn ill after that.

Excuse the knife. It had nothing to do with the cookie :) That was the end of my chocolate chip cookie phase and the start of my curry puff craze!

Last night I went over to my bro's place for dinner. Him, his fiancee and I played mahjong for quite some time. I thought we were going to play with those plastic chips but my brother was like 'No way! We're playing for real money!' . So I ended up forking two dollars out (since we were mainly playing with ten cents) and I ended up winning the first round and both of them had to pay me $3.60 each! Hah! I ended up winning the most that night. My sister came over later, with her bf and that kind of killed the night for me. I didn't expect him to come and I guess because we had already worked up this adrenalin rush from playing, I became really impatient because my sister was trying to teach him how to play. Grr...he was bothering me ... he's aussie and he can't speak chinese for peanuts. He kept repeating what little he knew, over and over and over again. He was using this one sentence to hold an entire conversation. It doesn't really help much when my sister herself is all snappish too. Her comments throughout the game are cold and cutting and it just ruins the whole atmosphere. I was kind of glad that she stayed the night at her bf's place that night.

Not to say that I can't stand my sister entirely...but just lately she's been losing her patience at everything. She's told me too that she doesn't know why but everything makes her angry or upset or extremely emotional. She's got some health issues she's dealing with and I was trying to help her out with what I knew. I had to help her fill out these confusing medical forms the other night because she was seeing a specialist and they suggested some kind of operation. If she goes ahead with that, I'll be following her to the surgery place. I really hope it's nothing major and she can get back to her normal self.

Anyways, look at me. I've been rambling on for ages and my eyes are half closed. So goodnight it is!

Wednesday, 21-Jan-2004 8:07 PM

Puttin up the lights!

So my mom insisted, insisted, insisted that we put up lights for Chinese New Year this year because it's the Year of the Monkey (my year!) and apparently this year isn't going to bring in good health or something. So I think having the lights up was a feng shui thing, plus it's being festive too and well, telling the whole damn suburb that we're Chinese, so now instead of being randomly racist to us, you can come right up to our door and do so.

We've still got more to put up inside the house!

Anyhow, it's 8:15pm and I haven't had dinner so my sister and I are going out to celebrate on our own. Aren't we just so cool.

Monday, 19-Jan-2004 11:20 PM

Window of opportunity.

I'm starting to notice a trend in me where I'll spontaneously change my decision on something and go for something quite different. For example that night the girls and I went to get icecream. I'd been planning on some kind of mint choc chip (I know, it's a kiddie flavor) but decided on chocolate instead. So there I was holding a chocolate icecream waiting for my friends to choose theirs and when they did and were about to close the glass window thing, I quickly swapped it for a boysenberry icecream.

When Salami and I went to Pancakes on the Rocks (something I'd been craving for), we waited forever for the waitress to come and when she did, I changed my order at the last second and got something so obscure that Salami just stared at me as though I'd suddenly turned into a man.

Now it brings me back to my future career as a chiro. Chiropractic was my 6th choice on the university application form. It was the only non art or computer related course out of the 8 or so I chose. I did get into an Information and Technology course and I was actually enrolled in it but as I did with the mint choc chip icecream, I changed courses on a whim, just before the window closed.

The point of all this is now I'm wondering if I'm all talk and semi-action in taking months/years organising my life and studies so I can move across the world to be with someone I love only to suddenly change my mind and not want to do it. I had a talk to Salami today because I finally got some information on the exams for the US. It's past the enrolment date and tomorrow is the final late enrolment date and it's not really possible for me to get the application forms and send it off tomorrow. Plus, the exam is beginning of March and there's no chance I can learn everything in less than two months (a part of me thought I could...and drifted off into an imagination so deep...one where I was studying at parks and beaches and enjoying it too.) I've had months to check up on all this and I felt really bad about it but at the same time I'm still feeling the pressure of him wanting me to get all this done so that we're not apart even longer than we have to be. Anyways, we sort of decided that I'd take part 1 and 2 of the exam at the same time this September, instead of Part 1 in March and Part 2 in September. The idea of it gets me down. I really wanted some kind of support or girly affectionate words but he wasn't too good in that department and I started feeling even more depressed. Yes, crying depressed. I'm sure he thought I was overreacting but hey, shaddup. It's not just about having to take 4 extra crappy exams with about 25 different subjects involved. It's about wanting to do it for myself and him. Moreso myself. But right now...it feels like it's all for him.

Sunday, 18-Jan-2004 3:11 AM

Love and laughs.

It was a good night tonight. It being already 3 something the next morning should say the least :D Hehe..it was good catching up with A and C. Girl's night out...I haven't had one of those in forever. We watched Something's Gotta Give in the city. It just felt so weird...like I hadn't been there to do the movie and dinner thing in what seems like three years. The movie was great..I laughed a lot. Diane Keaton was fantastic in it. She looked so damn good!

After the movie we were walking down the street and bumped into one of our old highschool friends that we had just been talking about earlier during dinner. He was walking in the opposite direction, holding hands with his boyfriend. It was so cute! I'm glad he's openly gay. R's boyfriend is here for a year - a backpacker from Sweden. He was pretty damn goodlooking (so what they say is really true).

We were dying for some icecream after but couldn't find a place that was open. One of the stores turned their lights out just as we were about to go there! We drove all the way to this other icecream place but that was closed. SO, in the end, being desparate as we were, we ended up buying some from a 7-eleven store and eating it outside. Talk about classy :D

I drove A back to her place and then C and I talked at my place for about an hour and a half. Just catching up on things...it was really good :) I've missed her!

The thing is, good nights like these always end up being a little lonely when I've no one to come back to, no one to share the night's stories with. I wish he was here.

Saturday, 17-Jan-2004 12:05 PM

Welcome to the family.

I've been contemplating how to say all this...write a big blurb?.....keep it short and simple?...I don't want to take away from its importance by writing it in point form but some of the most important things are written in point form. Plus, it's as though I'm bipolar on the subject...I either have absolutely nothing to say or everything to say.

* Last month I found out that my brother's girlfriend is pregnant.

* Then I found out that next month she'll be my sister in law

* She's only 20.

* They've only known each other less than 10 months - not that that's a bad thing.

* Everyone's rushing to get this wedding organised by next month

* Last week we found out that she might be deported back to Malaysia - visa problems, illegal brothers staying here etc etc. They can't actually get married until this is fixed and the invites have been sent out and the place has been booked so the situation is rather difficult. If they do deport her, she has 28 days to leave the country and there's a good chance they won't let her get back in.

* They have absolutely no money. Her parents have absolutely no money. So my parents are forking everything out to cover all the costs (Don't you worry Mom and Dad - I'll be getting married in Las Vegas!).

* It came as a surprise to them too but they'd really like to have the baby in wedlock (it's not due until August I think) and the date they chose in Feb is supposed to be an auspicious one hence the mad rush.

Anyhow, too many things going on and I've got to help them paint the place they're staying at so no time to note it all down. This week has been strangely filled with lots of calls and emails from old highschool friends and bumping into quite a few too. I was invited to a big dinner thing last night ($60 per head seafood buffet!) but I declined it so I'll meet up with a few of them on Sunday for yum cha. Tonight I'm meeting the girls at Town Hall and we're havin dinner and catching a movie. It'll be good :) I haven't seen them in two years or so.

Thursday, January 15, 2004 9:25 PM

You could've juggled daggers in the air tonight.

Something's definitely up my sister's butt tonight. I came back from the clinic and she said she hadn't cooked anything but she took the chicken out to defrost. I said that was fine and that I'd cook cause she didn't feel like it. She couldn't decide on what to eat and said she wasn't hungry yet so I said I'd watch some tv and think about it. Anyhow, her bf comes over and she's all shitty. Storms up the stairs and says she's ordering takeaway. When I said I'd cook she said 'well I'm ready to eat in 15 minutes.'

'Well fuck you' I want to say. I just came back from an 8 hour shift and you've been doing nothing all day.

She walks off and I go downstairs to find that she's already ordered food. So I figure it's just for herself...not that I really cared because I knew that she'd feel bad later for a number of reasons - the fact that she's not eating something healthy and she's not saving money (something her bf is harping on her about).

Anyways, when the food arrived, it was so awkward in the kitchen. It wasn't deathly silent but it was pretty bad. Her bf was there and sat watching her eat (he'd already had dinner) while I was standing at the kitchen counter dishing out my food and cooking vegetables to eat with it. They tried to talk a bit but their voices were so quiet and you could tell they were struggling to say something. They talked about yesterday's weather for cryin out loud.

Well I couldn't just sit there. It was too icky a situation. It felt like everyone had to tiptoe around her like she was Queen Bee. I hate that. I really do. And when I say I hate things like that, I'm talkin about this side of me that boils up and can think only violent images and cruel, cutting words to say.

I've so much to say in regards to my sister...but before all that...there's some things I've not mentioned.

Wednesday, 14-Jan-2004 1:18 AM

Dinner and movie. Always a good combo.

I just got home a little while ago from dinner with C (she pointed out that we hadn't seen each other in 1.5 years! Not too good for best friends I guess.), her sister, bro and her boyfriend. We also watched the chic flick 'Love Actually' - the movie I was trying to get Salami to watch with me while he was here and now I'm glad I didn't put him through it because he'd probably have died sitting in the cinema tonight. Scarily enough we bumped into two guys from highschool who were watching the movie together?!?! One of them was a badass and the other was one of the members of the 'cool' gang. Both rather homophobic and both dated over 5 or so girls in the year 12.

So while I was sitting there in the dark with the light from Hugh Grant's face reflecting across mine, part of me was thinking about Salami and the excitement of finding a place sometime in the future and making it ours and the other part of me was being my typical virgo self and analysing the conversation we had earlier. Now I'm starting to wonder if he was selectively telling me things. I hope not.

Tuesday, 13-Jan-2004 11:41 AM

So we're finally going to talk about some things...the future etc. I've been wanting to talk about things for a long while now but there never seems to be a good time. Exams, work, study etc. Plus many a times when I bring the topic up, it feels like he backs off or ignores it somehow and waits until I'm over it. So the thing is, now that there's some set time to discuss things, I can't think of a single thing to say. I can't for some reason remember anything I have been thinking about the last few months. I've even tried to sit down and write some points down. Ugh. I can't even remember why I was upset those few times when he was visiting. Damnit. Sometimes I think there's no point making a note of things because I'd never forget it but that's always because I'm in some kind of rage.

Or maybe I'm just slowly losing my memory because I can't seem to remember much of anything at all really. Ahh man. Here goes.

Friday, 09-Jan-2004 1:09 AM

Ahoy there!

Lately my sister and I have been drifting further and further apart in our taste for things. Clothes, food, guys, furniture, you name it.

Okay you didn't name it. Our latest difference - toilet paper design. Who on EARTH would buy this (besides my sister)!?!!

Click to enlarge.

Incase you can't tell what it is, it's a dog, looking through two toilet rolls to get a closer look at your behind:P

Thursday, 08-Jan-2004 10:00 PM

Long day.

I spent 9 hours at the student clinic today. My feet are killing me. I need some new work shoes. Or socks or something. I thought it was a pretty good day today but I'm sure everyone else would have disagreed. Probably their worst but nothing really compares to that guy who went ballistic last year. One of the interns forgot to get the supervisor in to check on him because he had a new patient and it's part of the rules. The supervisor got annoyed about that. She also got pretty frustrated because everyone else (not me though, cause today I had the most number of patients! THREE :P) was playing cards in the back room and listening to music. I had a pretty full day. One of my patients kindly gave me an entire bag full of xrays dated all the way back from 1988. Thanks Mr C. That meant going in an hour earlier (hence the 9 hours) to have a look at it all. The supervisor made me write up a report on it and that took me forever. Everyone was helping me out in the back room. We got a lot of things wrong and the supervisor got all irritated because we didn't seem to know much about anything :/

My regular patients are all real nice to me. Mr T whispered to me today not to forget my watch in the treating room (I had taken it off and left it on the table) - just like a father. Ms H is real sweet girl. Mr C has been giving me real nice compliments about how I'm better than the last intern (who btw, duxed the year above and is apparently the best adjuster). Although I don't know what to make of his latest compliment: You know, you are better than ******. You are just like a physiotherapist!

Grrrr. We won't go there.

The last four hours I was supposed to be on reception but I got away with not doing a single thing. Actually I would've preferred to be on reception duty rather than write up an xray report. That damn thing took me 3 attempts (Supervisor wasn't happy with it) and about 3 hours to complete!

Coming home to a nice home cooked meal was a surprise:) My sister made san choy bao! Mmm...goodstuff:) I surprised her right back by buying these mango pancake desserts - her favorite. It was a good all round meal :D

Wednesday, 07-Jan-2004 2:21 PM

All the best for 2004!

Happy New Year Folks! A week late but still :P

I know I've been neglecting my site for quite some time. I guess I hit a phase where I didn't really want to say anything much because I was getting all paranoid again. Having Salami here for my two week break made the days fly. I loved it and hated it all at once because I'm now back to where I was two weeks ago, working for free and not really wanting to.

I had a great time. Hung around the city a lot and did more walking than I can remember. Salami really wanted to do the bridge climb and had mentioned it just before coming here. Only thing was, I had already planned to do that for his birthday on Jan 3rd. He mentioned it the first couple of days and I kept having to play it down and ignore it. So then he went on to wanting to do some kind of hike at the Blue Mountains or see the Jenolan Caves. Anyhow, having to keep it a secret from him until his second last day here was kind of hard. We ended up going to Katoomba and doing a couple of the small hikes there the day before his bday. It was too damn hot so we didn't do this four hour hike he wanted (thank god!). Plus the track kind of disappeared into the creek so we had to head back. Hover over the pics for details and click to enlarge!

I chose a crappy place to eat at. It looked nice but everyone in there waited over an hour for their food.

Took advantage of the great weather and did a whole beach day thing. Went to Manly and then drove over to Bondi and from there walked to this small one just around the corner from it. The coastline was really nice. We had fish and chips on one of the cliff fronts. Btw, I gave up on the descriptions:D

Also went to the Sydney Observatory where you can see the stars through huge telescopes. I'd always wanted to do that but couldn't find anyone to come with me :D It wasn't that great though. I thought we'd see the stars and planets extremely closeup through the microscope but it wasn't that magnified. Went to several markets including the one at The Rocks. I love markets! I'd like to have a stall :D

We also visited the ZOO! :D

Alright, the picture thing is taking me forever so I've quit on that idea :) We saw Finding Nemo at Moonlight Cinema - where they erect a huge screen at Centennial Park and everyone brings their own picnic rugs or bean bags to sit on. If you're in town, you should check it out! Or OpenAir Cinema (I think it's nicer). On Boxing Day, we had a bbq with my sister and her bf and his place. It's always weird because Salami and I eat a lot and my sister and her bf don't so they make us look like pigs :P After that we all headed to the cinema to watch Lord of the Rings - Return of the King. It was Opening Night too! The line was so long, it went around several corners of cinema. It was good though. Poor Salami, he's more into LOTR than I am ...he was so tired from jetlag, I could see his head bobbing all over the place from the corner of my eye. Actually, I was kind of embarassed seeing as it was opening night and I'm sure everyone that lined up for tickets to see it would have been insulted. He denies falling asleep though :P Whatever boy, I saw you!

New Year's Eve we headed down to Mrs Macquarie's Chair, along with what seemed like 5 million other people. I thought we could bring our own alcohol but I was wrong. Somehow I remember doing so the other years. Anyhow, that meant we had to stop before heading in to where they checked everyone's bags and drink our stuff outside. We hid the rest in the big roots of one of the trees and covered it with leaves :D While waiting for the first set of fireworks, I decided to brave the toilet lines even though I didn't need to go. I figured, with my luck, by the time 9pm came (when the first set of fireworks are on), I'd probably have to go. I waited 45 freakin minutes. The spanish lady in front of me in the line kept talking to me and making faces like she was in excruciating pain. I didn't have the heart to tell her that I was just standing there hoping I'd have to go by the time I got to the front of the line. She took like 6 damn minutes in the cubicle! Gees lady! When I came out, I bumped into Salami. He had gone looking for me. I still remember my reaction to that. I had taken one look at him, noticed he was empty handed and asked where our bags were. He'd left them at the spot we were sitting at. I called him insane. Seriously though, good people of Sydney, I know you wouldn't steal my digital camera , mobile phone and wallet......Salami, are you INSANE!? I can't believe he left it there.

Anyhow, when everything was over and we had left the area, we found our alcohol still hidden at the base of the tree, only the bottles were wet. I insisted that some drunk guy pissed all over it but Salami pointed out that it had rained a little. Yes, I'm paranoid. I decided to wash the bottles over with the water I brought and what did he do? Immediately gave me his to do the same:P We did get a good view of the fireworks. They were coming from three different areas all around it. I loooooove fireworks :D I tried to take some pictures of the fireworks but they didn't turn out well and I decided to stop and just enjoy it through my eyes instead.

Ahh, I'm missing him thinking about all the stuff we did. We sure ate a lot this time. Yesterday I was talking to my sister and said how I liked the fact that Salami could eat a lot. 'Really?' she asked 'I like T because he DOESN'T eat a lot!'

Alright, this is the longest I've sat here at the computer in over two weeks. It feels strangely familiar. But! I'm not letting it. Going to get off my ass. I'm realising this entry might be hard to follow. I kind of talked about everything out of order. Anyways anyways! Hope you all had a fantastic New Year. Any resolutions?? Do share.

Monday, 05-Jan-2004 10:16 AM

And just like that, he is gone.

My heart feels suspended in midair, amongst a cloud of smokey haze. I drove home and checked to see his flight status online. Even stared out the window to see if I could catch a glimpse of his plane going past but it's too cloudy out.

I hate saying goodbyes. I try my hardest not to cry but then it's like the ice over a frozen lake breaking in one spot and then everything else around it follows suit. It's just hard when you don't know when you'll see someone again, if at all.

The walk back to the car at the airport parking lot seemed like the lonliest walk ever and then I'm equally matched and overtaken by the lonliest drive home.

I have to work at the clinic today too =(

Sigh. I miss him. =(