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Wednesday, 29-Jan-2003 10:33 PM

Oh gosh, there have just been so many things to do that updating this site has been at a standstill. Well, not that it has been completely, but I've taken a damn long time trying to make a few more pages. My mom and I did go up to Gosford yesterday. It was beautiful up there. Perfect weather, beautiful beaches. Nice =) My cousin who was drafted up there for a year gets to stay in this spacious three bedroom apartment that's right across the road from the beach. She's so lucky and I'm so jealous =( There's all this seaweed strewn across the beach but apart from that, and the fact that there's not much to do but relax, it's a pretty damn good lifestyle! Don't know what I did up there but I jammed my back up :( Then my aunt made it worse by trying to haul me into the water. I didn't think she could go so excited and immature like that :P Anyhow, I'm almost good to go, thanks to my trusty chiro =) Where would I be without him!

I took pics :D Warning: scenery shots only. Or just about.

Monday, 27-Jan-2003 1:30 PM

So much for a Happy Australia Day weekend.

Breathe..breathe..breathe...I must NOT stress out. We didn't go up to Gosford that day because it was getting late in the afternoon and my aunt was suggesting we spend the night there but neither of us wanted to, so we decided to go there today. But late last night, my mom changed her mind and said she doesn't want to go today because she doesn't want to fight all the other people driving back as the long weekend is over. SO, another day wasted. Not wasted, but I plan for these things you know? I can't be giving up two days now and putting aside the things I want to do.
That's the other thing. I've been wondering how best to say this without going into some superlength drama but I couldn't come up with anything so I'm going to have to go for the 12 hour dribble here. It seems that just because I'm home, or awake, my mom thinks 'Oh good! Now she can help me with this and this and do this and that.' when it's not my intention to spend the whole day being her houseslave.
She doesn't understand that to study, requires e.n.e.r.g.y and quite a lot of it too. She thinks by the end of the day, when lots of things have been done and she can cross them off HER 'to-do list', that I can go study then. By which time I'm totally exhausted and have no stamina or energy at all to do my things. If I try to, I have to stay up late and night, which becomes another problem. It means I wake up around 11. And we start the cycle of complaints from the big M. She'll tell me when it's time to sleep or when it's past overdue waking hours and all that crap..I'M OLD ENOUGH TO SLEEP AT MY OWN HOURS AND WAKE AT MY OWN HOURS!!
My dad is back on Friday for a week. Do you know what that means? It means I have to spend the entire week with them and that's driving me insane since I just spent my hard-earned two months break with them. I do not consider that 'relaxation' or 'holiday' time. I came back thinking that I really had to start studying and catching up but with everyone flying in and out at all different times, it means that summer break will be over and I'll have not done a thing. Oh god I'm panicking..I'm panicking ..I hate when I get like this..
Because my family doesn't all live together (no, my parents aren't divorced), every time my dad is back, it's considered a 'drop everything and spend quality time with dad' time.
So I've just come back from 2 months with them, and then my mom flew back with me and she's here for 3 weeks. My dad will come for one week. My sister will be back in a few days. Then when they all go, my brother will come back. Then my cousin will fly in from Malaysia because she'll be studying here.

Hay dios mio! I need a break. They don't understand that when I say that, it means I need a break from THEM.

God I'm stressed.

Friday, 24-Jan-2003 11:22 PM

Shake your tail feathers!

Ahoy! I'm HOME. Yay to that =) The fires here have left behind their lovely presence on our toilet seats. They were coated in this small black ash-like dust =/. I didn't sleep the entire trip on the plane. I met this guy, well, not by choice..I wanted to use the toilet and there was a free one on his side of the plane. He pointed it out to me and I thanked him and went. When I got out, there he was, right in my face practically. Asking me whether I was on my way home and then a billion more questions. We ended up talking for over an hour. My mom came over TWICE to check on me. Sheesh. So we talked, about asian girls and aussie girls and everything in between. It was strange because I didn't have a guard up with this guy. If Ii disagreed with him, which I did most the time, then I damn well told him. I won't go into everything but I'd like to point out to guys who think like him, that not ALL asian girls go for money and status and superficial things. Hello!? We don't all find Hondas orgasmic and expensive restaurants and shiny, gold bracelets a must. As cheesy as it sounds, I'd be more impressed with a guy who brought me to a cheap but favorite place of his for dinner - afterall, it is about getting to know the real guy in you, not the fact that you can spend money, isn't it? The funny part was this guy kept insisting that humans only pair up with others they think are physically attractive so their kids would look good. He called this the Darwinian Theory and went on to use peacocks shaking their tail feathers as an example. And I gave this guy my email address :P

Anyhow, there is so much to do. My aunt and uncle are driving up tomorrow from Melbourne. They'll be staying a night before we all drive to Gosford to see my cousin and help her pack to head back to Melbourne. I still have my own unpacking to do. Done two loads of laundry already! Well, one to wash my sheets because I think there's something in it. Bit me last night :(

I also got to open my box of goodies. Late Christmas presents from my boy :D hehe...he got me this limited edition Elvis magazine/book. It's great. I don't know why I'm addicted to this King of Rock'n'Roll but I just am :D Daaaaamn he's sexy :) He also got me a sweater and a box of Godiva chocolates because I'd never tried them before :) Truffles..mmmmm =) He's a sweetie.

Need to catch up on sleep too. Yesterday totalled about 3 hours sleep in 36 hours. Least I'll get to sleep in tomorrow =)

Wednesday, 22-Jan-2003 2:34 AM

Yo! This is my last entry before I fly back home tomorrow. My back is aaaaaching cause it's late and I'm still up being a doofus and waiting for my dork to appear. He's over 15 minutes late and I'm so damn tired that I'm about to give up on him, after I type this out :P Anyways, I'm probably overloaded..I've no idea how I'm going to bring that big stuffed Stitch soft toy my brother got me for christmas. He's coming somehow though! Hopefully they won't stop me like they did my sister. They xrayed her bag and asked her all these questions about whether she packed it herself and if she knew what was in it, then made her open it in front of everyone only to reveal this stuffed Elmo doll. They thought Elmo's big, round, plastic eyes were apples and she was smuggling them in. HahAHa.

Ah! He's here. FINALLY. I'm going to give him some big guilttrip for being late :P Nite folks. See ya back in Sydney!

GRRRRRRR the NERVE of that boy. Late because he was playing a GAME and lost track of time. WTF. I don't know whether to be angry or extremely angry. I can't believe I waited up.

Friday, 17-Jan-2003 11:08 AM

Yes I'm a dog lover but I can't resist a cute kitty! I want it :D

Thursday, 16-Jan-2003 9:55 PM

I didn't leave the apartment the last two days. Really had the urge to do something creative and draw though. Would've loved to have some mungyo pastels and big blank drawing paper with me. I ended up creating myself a simple online store! I'm hoping to sell some of my creative juices such as jewellery and some paintings/drawings. It's not complete yet and although I'm busting a nut wanting to show everyone, I'm going to wait until I get it up and running :) Ahh, I'm excited! :D

My mom and bro are in Hong Kong for some fashion thing. My bro is trying to set up his own company and was going over there to make some contacts etc, and well, mom tagged along because she didn't think he could be left alone. Hahaha...well I guess I'm the less mischievious one and she's left me to hang around on my own. They didn't even ask if I wanted to come! Bah :P I'd much prefer not to anyway. Been to HK once and didn't quite like it. Too polluted - I got a crazy ass rash from it :( The sales weren't really big sales and I don't think I bought much at all.

Got a little grumpy with my guy while having a conversation online. I guess I just wanted more of his attention but he's really busy with work. He's been dumped with someone else's work as well as having his own deadlines which means less time for us to talk. Ah well...I should savour the 'ME time' I suppose.

Wednesday, 15-Jan-2003 2:19 AM

What a day. In short, I walked over to this shopping area about 12 minutes walk away from the apartment. Tried to dress down but I guess instead of dressing in a skirt, singlet/tank and carrying a handbag, I opted for the lesser of the two that would stand out. I ended up sticking out like a sore thumb, I suppose. Wearing short, top, and a backpack. I'm sure they spotted me out on the sidewalk instantly. In that 12 minute walk I got horned at, shouted at, talked to from truck windows - ew.
I got to look at a lot of books and browsed the stores. I bought myself a rather expensive skirt and red tanktop =( What happened to post-New Year sales huh??? So much for that.
I know, it'll be two days in a row that I hit one of these coffee franchises but I don't do it often back in Sydney, I swear! :) I stopped by Coffee Bean and had something to eat and a hot cafe mocha (mmm delicious), woah, took me three attempts at spelling that. It's late, forgive me ;) This young guy and lady walk in. She sits while he orders. She was looking my way and I tried not to be paranoid but I realised she WAS looking at me half the time. Thought maybe it was the way I was eating my spinach and cheese puff with my grubby hands instead of cutting it (it was too hard to cut), which would have been fine, but even after I finished, she was looking at me from time to time, as was the guy with her. Another guy came and sat with them, his back facing me. They said something to him and he turned around. I was waiting for it and was staring right at him. He whipped back to position fast. They talked, laughed, looked at me. As I finished my drink and picked up my backpack, I looked up and saw that they were all just watching me. Even the one who had his back facing me had turned his chair sideways. I stared at each one of them. Then turned around and left and that's when I almost trip over my own feet because I had suddenly realised that the seat I was sitting on probably left an imprint on the back of my thigh and they'd see it and have something more to laugh about. I was peeved and so urged to turn back around and walk up to them and ask what they were staring at. Didn't though :( On the walk back, I started getting really upset, thinking they were making fun of me and all that crap. I know, it's stupid to get worked up but I manage to with ease and by the time I got to the top of the pedestrian crossing, I was shedding a few tears. It took me an extra ten minutes walking home.

I guess I'm making a very bold statement here but Chinese people sure like to stare. When you're at a restaurant, they MUST look at who's just entered and they HAVE to see what everyone else is ordering. I guess others do it too but maybe everything registers faster and they can get back to their own business without their glance becoming a stare. I'm just irritated. When I get irritated, I tend to say a lot of things, so tomorrow you'll probably find me saying something completely opposite in opinion of what I've just said..ahh and I blabber once again. Gnite folks.
Some kinda bomb or fire scare just happened across the road. I saw two firetrucks pull up and one van which seemed to be bombsquad or something. Hope everything is alright there. That's the highlight of the day I guess..oh, plus I went to the gym and worked my bootay off doing laps in the pool even though the surgeon said I shouldn't exercise for awhile.
Actually no! How COULD I forget. After coming back from the gym, I walked into the apartment and headed into the kitchen to put some groceries away. The moment I stepped in there, I slipped and fell on my knee, ass, and foot. While we were out, the sink pipes must have leaked ..bigtime. The whole floor was flooded! My jeans got soaked right in the ass part. Lovely. I managed to save every irrelevent thing from getting wet, though. The backpack on my back and the groceries and herbal eggs I was carrying. Hah! All at the expense of my poor buttocks and legs.

Alright, now that I've said that, I can hit the hay now :)

Monday, 13-Jan-2003 5:08 PM

'Want to try the new Mocha Hazlenut Frappucino??..' - nerdy boy working at Starbucks

Got my stitches out today but I'm on another round of antibiotics (ugh, hate taking meds) because the swelling is still there. Mom ditched me to have lunch with one of her new friends she made at the feng-shui course. Thanks mommy dearest. So I was walking around the mall by myself. Ended up in the bookstore. I LOVE bookstores. Specially those big ones where you're allowed to browse and read the books. I can spend hours there. I didn't even get through much and it was time to go =(

I had coffee and a tuna croissant with my mom at Starbucks. The guy serving us must have been so keen to get the 'Employee of the Month' award or something. Honestly, he was leaning so far over the counter, smiling at us, that I thought he was going to fall over. Plus, before we could even have a look at the menu on the back wall, he was already repeatedly asking what we wanted. HELLO EAGER BEAVER?!! Hold your horses for a moment! Gees! Mom was trying to ask me what some of the drinks were and he kept trying to lean over some more and was asking what she was saying cause he couldn't hear. He still kept butting in, asking if we wanted this or that and it drove me insane so I growled at him and stuck my knuckles into my eyesockets - something I've been doing recently whenever I get annoyed. Then trying to pay for the croissant and drinks at the same time proved so difficult. He didn't seem to understand that I wanted to pay for it all together. He also said he'd give me a card (the frequent sippers one where they punch holes in it and you get something free on the tenth visit etc etc) which he forgot AND he forgot my mom's order. My, I don't think he's fit for Employee of the Month afterall..

Saturday, 11-Jan-2003 1:17 PM

I'm off to Malacca for the night! Bringing my puffy jaw and sore gums with me :P It hasn't been so bad. I've only taken that one pain killer the night following the operation. I've been greedy and desperate enough to eat stuff I shouldn't be eating so it's all good :D

Let's see what gossip the aunts have this time.

Friday, 10-Jan-2003 8:02 PM

Oh good lord. I think I snore :( Either that or I just couldn't breathe because each time I did it once during my nap, I'd wake up and have to shift my head around. Crying always makes me sleepy and much crying did I do earlier. I just don't think I can go on living like this. My dad frustrates me. If only he would treat my mother and brother nicer, then all the wrinkles would be ironed out and things will get so much better. He's so stubborn though, that it'll be a miracle if I hear him laugh in the presence of them both one day. You know, I do not recall him being happy around the entire family in all of my 22 years and it is so sad. He's happy around my sister and I, which most would say is good, but there's a part of me that would let him treat me badly if I got to see him and my brother in some kind of genuinely happy scenario.

Thursday, 09-Jan-2003 1:49 AM

I unexpectedly got two of my wisdom teeth pulled out today. =( While it may look like some spontaneous thing I did, I assure you, it's not. I've been trying to avoid the dentist for over a year now and today was supposed to be a <i>consultation</i> with the oro-surgeoun. I left with one whole tooth and 5 shattered pieces of another.
This oro-surgeon says that in his practice, he gives all his patients an intravenous injection in the inner arm. This gets the patient drowsy and relaxed so he can then stick numerous unpleasant injections in their gums. Somehow, the thought of an extra injection in my arm freaked me out more than the whole mouth operation itself and my mom and I left to have lunch for the hour and think about it. We both knew it would be best if I did it today. No chickening out, I told myself, and back we went.
The ladies working there were REALLY nice to me. Very attentive and reassuring, which helped calm my nerves. One of them thought it was extremely sweet and cute when she caught my mom giving me a hug and kiss just before I went into the surgery room.
My mom bought a book and waited for me outside. I can't tell ya how much that meant to me. She's always going on about how we need to do things for ourselves etc and we do, and have at a very young age, so it's nice that she held my hand this time.
I must have been such an ass of a patient, asking a million questions. They took an xray at the start and I asked what the kVP/radiation dose was. Immediately the nurse asked if I was a medical student. I said sort of, and she told me that I should tell the oro-surgeon and that I'd get a discount. Hah.
The oro-surgeon told me that everyone of his patients love the intravenous injection. Right, I replied. I'll be the first not to. He said it'd take 1/2 a minute to work and I said I'd start counting. He was right on the money. When it was all over, he asked semi-sarcastically how many injections he gave me. 6 or 7 I told him. He was shocked and the nurses found it really funny because I had gotten it right and it was actually a guess.
Anyways, not to gross anyone out but a lot of damn saliva pools up in my mouth and it's so hard to swallow without pain. It took me about 40 minutes to slurp porridge for dinner. I got so impatient and frustrated that I punched the sofa :D ehhe..well, up until a little while ago, I was braving it out with no pain killers but my mom thought it'd be good to take one before I sleep, so I've taken one codeine tablet from the million or so the oro-surgeon gave me. He gave me something stronger (Pomstan?) if the codeine didn't work. Eesh.
I hate taking these things.

Now if only my gums would stop bleeding already. I've had to change the gauze every hour since 4pm and I want to sleep without having one of these things jammed in my mouth!

Wednesday, 08-Jan-2003 1:11 AM

I really, really need to learn how to relax and destress. I'm snappish at my whole family because they really have been driving me nuts. I think it's all about hanging around people for too long. You need a break every once in a while. No wonder those people on Real World and Big Brother fight so much. It's just like family. You don't CHOOSE them (and I'm not going to go into the whole metaphysical thing about spirits choosing to be with other spirits..).

I have this tea that I brought over from Sydney. EVERYTIME I make it, someone ALWAYS has to touch it- whether it be lifting the lid off the top of the mug or moving the mug, and ask who's tea it is. It really, REALLY pisses me off for some reason and tonight it happened twice within a span of five minutes. First my dad, then my brother. I went ballistic and my dad looked at me with this coy grin and called me a crazy lunatic because he had witnessed my second outburst, which was identical to the one i had given him five minutes earlier.

Later my dad crept up on me while I was talking to my boy online and he was trying to read the screen. That really shits me. I don't go reading his things, even as a joke. I don't look at his messages on his phone even if it's right in front of me. I wish he would respect my privacy and not be so damn nosy. Sneaking up on me is his speciality and he always does it and says that I'm always on the net, the moment I turn around and catch him in his spying act. It's not funny..it's like watching re-runs of a semi-boring show. The first time you see it, it's not funny. Everytime after, it becomes annoying.

I can't help but be bothered by little things. I need help. I need to learn to relax.. sigh =(

Sunday, 05-Jan-2003 5:45 PM

Oh gosh what a nightmare. After five days of battling with the nasty W32.Yaha@mm virus, I'm a little scared to say that I'm back with much confidence. So a warning to you all, if you receive an email from your friends or whoever with an attachment about 46K in size and titled love.scr or friends_circle.scr or anything relating to friends and love, DON'T OPEN IT!

That aside, I've been turning into a gym junkie. My dad and I have been going to the gym quite often. Thursday, Friday and today. Not bad eh?! I'm determined to kick ass on that pull-up machine. I was dying to try out the gym's pool as I've never used it before so today we went early. Well, reason being was so we could also book Gold Class seats for LOTR2. We're seeing it tomorrow night! Yay! Kids go back to school tomorrow too. Another yay :D

Eating well here is a problem. After working out, I seem to crave junk. Chocolate and icecream mostly. Ate a curry puff just now and an egg tart (those babies are good! Try the Portugeuse egg tart if you haven't). I think that's what makes it hard when I'm back in Sydney. The choice of food is different and lacking in variety. Or maybe I'm just not getting out enough to find all the different tastes of the city. You know what else people have been telling me about Sydney? They say it's a boring as hell city and there's just nothing to see or do at night. I'd have to semi agree with them there but only because I'm not a socialite and I probably don't know all the great places to hang out. Anyway, save that topic for another entry.

New Year's was pretty good. Well, as good as it could possibly be for a family affair. Dad was on his palm pilot typing away and leaving half the time to 'listen to voicemail' so he says. He's becoming too obsessed about talking about his secretary. I can't stand it to be honest. Not because I think it means he's cheating on my mother (which is not what I think), but it's that having a conversation with me is not all about girls and looks and superficial things. That's what I can't STAND. I wish he would talk to me about other things.

I got to see the parachutists and the great fireworks display from the San Francisco Steakhouse at KLCC. Got my poor toe trodden on by a rather large woman, carrying a baby too. I'll post pictures up when I get back to Sydney, which should be in a week or so. Their new year's dinner was a buffet. Not particularly the best. The had a live band who sang WAY too loud. Since we were there from 8:30pm, we passed the time by drawing something on a napkin and passing it around, to add more and more things to it. It was my mom's idea. She even kept it to frame it up.

I shared a room with my brother at the Renaiisance. Actually it was the New World Hotel which is their sister hotel. The room stank like cigars from whoeever stayed there before us. We got a nice view facing the twin towers and we could see all the traffic jammed up on the street below. Boy was I glad mom booked the hotel rooms! Dad went to bed early while Mom and I went to check out what was going on downstairs - nothing, so I went back to my room and watched some of Tootsie on tv. That show is still quite good despite it being made quite awhile ago. Fell asleep at 4am and my brother came in at around 5:30am, which woke me up. Then he crashed and was snoring within minute. Soft snoring at first and then he went on to perform some great symphony orchestra. Drove me nuts. I almost went to sleep in the bathtub but heard someone in the floor above flush their toilet and the refilling of it was just as loud as the snoring. I found a great solution though. Disgusting I suppose, but it worked wonders:) At the reception, there was a huge bowl of Starburst jellybeans that came two in a packet. My brother had taken a few and then left them in our room, on the bedside table. These are the smaller jelly beans we're talking about. Not them large ones. So I ripped open the pack and shoved a jellybean in each ear. It was hilarious for about 5 minutes. I couldn't stop laughing at the thought of what I was doing. Plus I kept imagining what my brother would think in the morning, if he woke up before me and saw these colored things i my ear.

Didn't get much sleep at all that night. Mom woke me up at 10:30am to see if I wanted to go for a swim. I didn't, but then changed my mind. She sat in the deck chair while I waded around in an already packed pool. We had to get out before noon so there wasn't too much time. We had a lunch appointment at the KL Tower at 1pm. Another buffet =/ But it was pretty nice. The deserts were great! Took a long nap after that and everything between then and now is a blur :)

Tell me what you all did for New Years! Any resolutions? The guestbook is looking mighty lonely there fellas =(